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it's been so long...

2009-03-28T01:53:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i last blogged.. haaa... was it like last year? time is passing so quickly it's hard to believe..

i've just moved on to a new phase in life recently.. no no.. im not married.. though i seriously hope i am.. but for that to happen.. i have to find the non-existent husband first... i just changed my job.. finally moved on from italtrade after pondering since forever... landed myself a job in a hardware co... so im surrounded by screwdrivers, spanners, hammers, etc everyday...

though i feel very relieved to have left the evil one's clutches.. but i reallie do miss anne alot.. n jereldine too.. miss the times when me n anne just talk about everything.. like how to conspire against the boss.. what flowers to buy.. wad to have for lunch.. wad she would cook for me.. or when i shld go get a pedicure... miss the times when jereldine will bring alloysius to the office.. miss all the nitty gritty things i used to do with them... miss the chinatown food..

the new office has a very nice setup.. but it's a little too quiet.. it's hard to stay so quiet the whole day.. but im gettin used to it.. most of the office people are pretty nice.. but i cant say the same for the store pple.. im startin to think they have something against me.. some of them always look so fierce.. im INTIMIDATED...

but they are organising a bbq on Good Friday.. and almost everyone is going to be there.. lest the bosses.. i hope we can break the ice.. im reallie dun wan to be outcasted in the workplace.. arghz... save me please...

prayin hard..

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2008-03-11T15:46:00.002+08:00

2nd post of the year..

am glad to say that i've been pretty busy so far that i no longer find spare time to blog.. im bloggin rite now as i've decided to give myself a break from endless work.. hee.. im just trying to slack..

as usual.. im back from the March Hong Kong exhibition.. DHL screwed up big time.. i have no idea why simple request can nv be fulfilled.. sometimes, i wish people just put a little more effort into their work.. well well.. it saves everyones time from cleaning their asses after that rite? but let's see how DHL is going to reply after my long letter or complaint... ooooooo.... exciting...

the march fair is quiet as usual... no human traffic at our booth at all.. the location is just BAD.. everyday i just look forward to the end of the day.. gosh.. n there's no cute guys to drool over.. only one smart israeli who could speak chinese fluently.. reallie reallie fluently...

bought like 10 or 11 jackets as they are reallie very cheap.. for most pieces, i paid less than sgd10!! how cool is that rite? i just couldnt resist buyin.. my luggage couldnt even close when i was packing to come back! and i bought 2 pairs of canvas shoes too!! love those converse shoes... weeeeeeeeee.....

weather there was pretty coolin.. got to wear my trench coat for most of the days.. and when i took the ferry... the sea breeze is so strong that i start trembling.. ahhaha.. its cold... brr..

cant think of anything else to write now as im preparing to go for class in a short while.. my god.. class will start from 6pm .. all th way till 9.30pm... im gonna dieeee.....

p.s. swarovski crystals are all man made.. they are just very well cut stones!! gosh.. they are soooooooooo expensive for being what they are.... lucky i nv fancied buyin them...

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2008-01-01T00:16:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone!! May 2008 be a blessed and smooth year for everyoneeeeeeeeeeee!!

And to Laura... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Yesterday was a great day!! The great day was Miss Deb's bithday!! Though i had a bit of gastric.. but everything was soooooooooooooooooooo exciting!! I have to say all of us (attendance ytd: Aud, Mit, Deb n me) don't meet very often.. if we even meet up like 3 times a year.. it's like a miracle.. but it always feels like the time in between is nv long.. becoz it always feels the same!! Ktving last nite for close to 7 hours is crazy.. i felt like im losin my voice ok.. sang like mad.. erm.. actuallie.. i think we are mad.. drivin taxis in calcutta.. hearing deb sing deborah.. n of coz our famous F4's LIU XING YU...

溫柔的天空　應該讓你感動我在你身後　為你布置一片天空
不准你難過　替你擺平寂寞夢想的重量　全部都交給我
牽你手　跟著我走　風再大又怎樣你有了我　再也不會迷路方向

陪你去看流星雨　落在這地球上讓你的淚落在我肩膀
要你相信我的愛　只可為你而勇敢你會看見　幸福的所在

傷感若太多　心丟給我保護疲倦的煙火　我會替你都趕走
燦爛的言語　只能點綴感情如果我沉默　因為我真的愛你
牽你手　跟著我走　風再大又怎樣你有了我　再也不會迷路方向

陪你去看流星雨　落在這地球上讓你的淚落在我肩膀
要你相信我的愛　只可為你而勇敢你會看見　幸福的所在

雨和云漸漸散開　灑下一片溫暖我要分享你眼中　的淚光

陪你去看流星雨　落在這地球上讓你的淚落在我肩膀
要你相信我的愛　只可為你而勇敢你會看見　幸福的所在

你會看見　幸福的所在

I proudly say this is our song!! how many pple can say that rite!! hahaha....

And of coz.. we had a surprise for the birthday girl.. we had a cake coming in at 12am! but mitsuye's bladder opted this time to have a nature's call... i had to run after her!!! its so damn funny... deb must have had a shock.. but aud alreadie knew wad went on.. coz we went to arrange the cake!! so we were like... "AHH.. MITSUYE..." joke i tell u..

I dun think things could have been anymore crazier last nite... but sadly olivia couldn't come as she fell sick... olivia u weakling la!!! must get well soon k...

I have no fotos to post.. coz deb didnt post up the pics yet.. post soon ok... love ya loads!! muackz!!

Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

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2007-12-26T11:33:00.000+08:00

With the year closing, I must say that 2007 has been an eventful year.. with goods and bads of course.. Bad being the death of my Grandma.. Mr Tham.. and Alex.. good of course is the birth of Javier.. n erm... maybe Elaine's refound freedom? Also.. Deborah's graduation !!

That's really majority of what I can remember from the year.. but I must say that December has been a good month for me.. if not, it is probably one of the best in the year...

Firstly.. after a couple of visits to my chinese physician, I did not get the horrid cramps that troubled me for the past couple of years every month without fail.. Im goin back for another consultation this evening..

In the month of december.. I felt like i have friends!! Met deborah finally after our last meetin on my birthdae... but like i always say.. no matter how long we haven seen each other for it always feels the same.. yea.. see I have friends!! I'm meeting with my L4 and Shancai on 30th too to celebrate Deb's 22nd Birthday! it's probably been quite some time since I celebrated her birthday.. cos i missed her 21st last year..

I also met up with the devils.. Cindy and Jieqi's present were super belated.. but that is how often we meet.. Had fish & co.. and my fave tea at Olio dome... will always look forward to our next meetin.. which is probably after a couple of months...

Company lumch was ok.. nuthing much to rave about.. but its freakingly expensive.. even though highly recommended by kevin's friends, the food was only ok, but the lunch added up to 180 bucks!! and it was just a normal thai restaurant.. i definitely wonts wan to go back there again..

And of coz, how can I be completely happy without Javier and the IJRC girls rite? We had a mini christmas party at Sy's place.. though I had to leave early.. I still had fun.. many many presents.. thanks Yx for the toiletries.. I will definitely use it.. and one of them is in my fave pink colour.. n the bag of sweets too!! Thanks jean for the bag.. I reallie appreciate that you make us something for christmas every year.. thanks laura for the hand sewn tag with the cute colourful bobble.. (but remember to bring ur exchange gift next yr k =P).. thanks elaine for the hand made cookies.. its reallie reallie very nice.. n i just found out that the necklace is magnetic!! thanks hk for the pink cat purse! lastly thank you sy for the candy cane... THANK YOU ALL OF YOU TO CREATE ANOTHER CHRISTMAS FOR ME!

so reason for rushing off from the party is becoz of my cameron highlands trip.. the bus journey was pretty loooooong... the weather there is good... slightly cold in the morning.. but come afternoon.. a t shirt is just fine... to tink i brought 2 jackets on the day trips.. end up i dun think i wore them very much... and I even got sunburnt for standin 5 mins in the sun... stupid.. n everyone was laffin at me.. it's not my fault that i get sun burnt k.. its reallie pretty sunny even if its 5 min!! the trip was pretty relaxing coz everything was just looking n movin on.. saw many many strawberries.. tea leaves.. vegetables and fruits.. oh yes.. cactus too... that's pretty much all they have there... think city dwellers who go there will not want to stay more than a couple of days.. their main town is probably like the downstairs of the hdb flats.. some shops n eateries.. that's all.. no shoppin malls.. cinemas or other forms of entertainment... but still it's another kind of enjoyment altogether.... got to go on one of the day trips with 2 cute little boys.. yi heng n yi xuan.. reallie adorable!!

Back to Singapore was like fallin back into the hot reality.. hot weather.. n work waitin to be done.. but thank god xmas eve was half day.. so i was pretty much slackin off a bit... n i think by now most of u have realised.. boxin day is pretty slack too!!

im amazed.. this entry is pretty long... more photos will follow when i upload them!!

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2007-12-10T10:27:00.000+08:00

Something to think about again...

Credit to 'Eugene Loh, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

Three Principles for Fulfilling Relationships

There are three principles that we should understand well before committing to any romantic relationship. If you're already in a relationship, studying these principles intimately and practicing them will help ensure a lasting, satisfying relationship.

Unrealistic expectations are usually what drive a couple apart, so the first principle to understand is that your partner does not owe you your happiness. This may sound strange because why else would we want to enter relationships if not to find happiness?

Sure, we should derive joy from our relationships but our partner should not bear the duty of giving us joy. Joy should be the spontaneous consequence of two people sharing feelings of love for each other, not the result of one party constantly striving to fulfill the other's needs. When we expect our partner to make us happy, we set up opportunities for failure, and each time our partner fails to meet our demands, we lose respect and affection for him or her. Besides, love doesn't mean consistently giving in to our demands. And love doesn't mean always making us happy. What gives our joy may not always be in our best interests. And love can sometimes mean hardship and pain.

The second principle for fulfilling relationships is to love your partner for who they are. Don't love a fantasy version of them you hope will emerge in the future. Many people enter a relationship thinking that in time, their partners will change, but this often doesn't happen. Your partner entered the relationship believing that this is what you fell in love with. He or she doesn't see any reason to change.

Loving your partner for who they are also means accepting their flaws, or what you deem to be flaws. Each person has attractive qualities as well as some habits or characteristics we may not find so beguiling. But we should love our partners in spite of the qualities we don't appreciate as much as the others. There is no perfect lover, like there is no perfect gadget. You're always going to have to trade off certain features for other ones you find more suited to you. And when you run into conflict over those undesirable features, your love for the whole product should be more than enough to make you overlook the flaws and still embrace your partner. So ask yourself "If my partner upsets me, will I be able to look past the words and actions and still love the person?"

The third and final principle is to love and respect yourself as much as you love and respect your partner. This is because if you feel inadequate compared to your partner, you might become obsessed with fulfilling his or her needs and neglect your own. Over time, your partner will learn to take you for granted and you will no doubt begin to feel like you got the short end of the stick.
Maintaining fulfilling relationships is no easy job, but understanding and practising these three principles should help you a great deal.

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2007-12-04T13:26:00.000+08:00

01st December was a much awaited day for me because it was Xiaozhu's concert.. this is probably the only concert I've been to after my F4 one.. which was eon years ago... realised that maybe im past the concert goin age.. wasnt very "high" throughout the concert.. wad's more.. i tink the audience werent very considerate.. tt totally put me off... since u paid to have a seat.. den sit.. with such good seats.. y do u need to stand? haiz..

but xiaozhu was reallie handsome.. n i tink his singing improved loads.. though not all that great.. but good enuff for me.. n off coz his dance was impressive as usual.. esp the chair dance that i loveeeeeeeeee....

If i go to his next concert.. i will buy the first row.. coz i dun wanna stand up n block pple... eeeeeee.....

once again.. xiaozhu is reallie very handsome!

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2007-11-12T12:03:00.000+08:00

Hi deborah.. just to prove to you that i am alive.. hahah... hope your exams n projects end soon.. am missing you already.. quick.. finish NUS.. i need your company...

After meeting Marie for lunch the other day.. i realised I dun really have many friends.. and as time goes.. i feel like everyone is just drifting.. maybe this is life.. u noe.. pple just change and slowly slip out of your life...

Also.. I'm starting to wonder if im frenless coz my EQ is low.. sometimes i really cannot stand the comments or jokes that pple make.. and it probably shows on my face n all... bleah.. but i dun care... that's just me..

Falling sick already.. especially after the bbq on saturdae.. but i didnt eat anything besides hotdogs n sweet potatoes.. so sian to fall sick.. my gums are all swollen!! cant eat much now.. but i hope i recover before sunday because im goin to the ZOO!

BBQ on saturdae was uneventful.. cause only me sy n jean with jackson of coz... kinda boring coz didnt really do much.. but at least me n sy took quite a long walk down east coast park.. though she kept complaining she was the wrong company for me.. so do u mean unless i have a bf.. i cant take walks in ecp?? wahahha.. i dun tink so..

anywae.. thoughts of leavin the company at the end of the yr is postponed.. because my boss has a new project for dental and a dental fair in april.. at the present moment..im involved in doin up the database n catalogue.. so i cant just leave anne alone to do the dental fair.. she has been sooo nice to me.. though sy told me that if i keep delayin it, i will nv leave.. but its not true.. if i made up my mind.. i dun tink i will change it.. so dun worry abt that.. its just waiting for the time to come..

Feel like attending the diamond course now.. cos im in the mood to study something.. but sadly.. no class is startin yet.. also.. if deb still wants.. we will go take a dance class after her exams...

time to get back to work.. cannot slack for too long.... =P

P.S. im alive!

2007-10-03T18:14:00.000+08:00

hey all.. im back alive from hong kong..

work is fine as usual.. but having to be around the boss is not.. he is just the most irritating person alive.. why doesnt the mafia wan to murder him back in italy? i reallie wonder...

met some reallie nice customers at the fair this time round.. many regulars... and one from the states that even asked me for my mobile number coz i told her i dun wan to come to anymore fairs in future... though i tink.. i wont be there long enuff to do another show... i reallie cannot stand the boss... can u imagine.. he made me go buy his coffee.. wad does he tink i am? his slave ah? n as usual.. he has nuthin nice to say about italtrade.. everything negative abt the company n singapore.. i mean.. if its so bad.. then pls wind the company up.. its not like we will die without the job... none of us would...

hate it to the max when he criticises anne... she works so hard for u.. n not even one bit of appreciation... wad kind of a person r u? den he asks me to work for him for long.. says if i sign a bond with him n work till im 30 yrs old.. he will bring me to italy... pui... who wants to go to italy.. esp to work with him... if not for anne...do u tink there is anyone workin in italtrade? he tinks too highly of himself.. well well... let him live in his world where he tinks everyone has to fall to his feet...

everyone except me!!

back home with a bad flu.. sniffin sniffin... eekkss... no more shows with the boss....

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2007-09-07T13:43:00.000+08:00

Firstly.. I want to tell everyone a big big big big thank you!! for all the presents.. wishes.. n company.. as i get older.. i feel that things changed.. birthdays are now daes meant to spend with family n frens whom care for me.. n not abt throwin parties.. or receiving presents n sorts...

5/09/07 - Got some presents in the office.. got a pretty top n a pink notebook with my name n bdae engraved on a tag foe me... it comes with a matchin pink pen too... lovely stuff!! n we had big breakfast from macs! if not for the evil boss.. i tink i can work there forever... but ya... u noe.. the EVIL boss makes it hard...

6/09/07 - went to visit my fave n only godson ytd morning.. but apparrently.. he cannot recognise me anymore.. maybe i shld visit him weekly.. its so hurtin tt he cant remember me!! n i had to keep reminding him who i was... JAVIER TAN... im ur godma la.. can u remember my face! dun gimme the "huh" look leh.. breaks my little heart ok...

went for lunch with mummy.. da jie n jac.. well.. family is my top priorty.. so i tink lunch was great as usual... headed for ktv after lunch with da jie n jac.. we sang for 4 hours straight.. pretty drainin ok...

met my L4 gang n "shancai".. they got me a MS ANEROXIC t-shirt... n we had a wonderful dinner cum supper at tian tian last nite... we sat there till like 1am.. even though i haven met oli n mit in 1 whole yr.. it reallie doesnt feel like it.. no awkwardness or anything.. it's reallie like we've been best frens for forever.. i cannot describe the feeling... but i noe i am very glad we r still so close... we must stay that wae k! i hope we wont only meet one yr later again...

With regards to sy's post.. i tink some frenship grows n matures over time.. ours probably is.. n how can our frenship not be stronger after so much that has happened? frenz who've seen u thru so much are close to the heart.. im really not good at expressing this.. but i reallie reallie am happy to have u in my life too! n its a bonus with javier... =P

no tear jerking entries from me.. as i cannot quite pen my thoughts, esp now that im sleepy.. but i just want u all to know how much i treaure u peeps.. from my L4 n "shancai" gang (gosh.. were we that childish?) to my ijrc clan...

~ Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you. ~ (this is wad u all r to me!)

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2007-09-05T10:51:00.000+08:00

birthday celebrations post.

2007-09-03T16:52:00.000+08:00

Thank you everyone for everything over the weekend!

Let's begin with the most recent.. which is on Sunday..

Thank you mummy and daddy for helpin me with all the bbq stuff and for paying of coz for everything.. Mummy probably spent quite a bit of time running back n forth to get all the food ready.. and daddy came home early to fix the lights and to bbq all my food for me!

Thank you da jie, gor gor n jac for the only thing that i really wanted for my birthday, the yoga mat, the yoga bad, the shorts n the key chain.. n of coz the card..

Thank you er jie n er jie fu for the card n hong bao.. n the $10 note with my birthday..

Thank you ah bo n aunt veron n auntie for the ang bao..

Thank you ah heng gor gor.. jiejie.. n family for the SK pendant n necklace.. its lovely..

Thank you ah yong gor gor for the bbq pit.. we could bbq so much stuff on the big pit!

Though i was a bit sian ytd for the bbq coz i had my mens.. but i appreciate everyone's presence.. ur presence make me feel loved! n i love u all too!!

Okay.. den it's saturdae! Thank you girls for my little party..

First of all, i have to thank siuyuin, i tink she put in alot of effort trying to co-ordinate this whole thing.. esp with all the unhappiness that happened..

Thank you sy, elaine, jean, laura, yx, hk for the kawaii jacket! I will defintely wear it considering i had such a ard time looking for it.. wahahah... .. but.. can u all wrap my present next time! i love tearin wrappers apart!! Oh.. and thanks for the t-shirt too! love it.. muz wear it to show off.. wahahha...

Thank you sy, elaine, jean, jackson, laura, junxu for the company over dinner n cake cutting...

Hotel 81 was pretty nice.. n pretty excitin too.. coz jean said she heard sounds comin from the other room when she was comin to our room.. wahhaha.. and of coz.. tian tian was good as usual.. thank u everyone for accomodating to me.. i noe u all ate there only because i wanted too.. so.. yup.. a very big big hug for each n every one of u..

That's about it... loads of photos taken on saturday.. will post them up tonite!

Lastly.. THANK YOU THANK YOU N THANK YOU ALL ONCE AGAIN!! *hugz*

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2007-08-28T12:03:00.000+08:00

Healing Co-Dependent Relationships

Credit to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

Relationship counsellors will tell you that the most common relationship dynamic they encounter is that of the co-dependent taker/caretaker.

Takers are people who tend to be self-centred, with an excessive need for attention and admiration. The taker attempts to control getting love, attention, approval or sex from others with anger, blame, violence, criticism, irritation, righteousness, neediness, invasive touch, invasive energy, incessant talking and/or emotional drama. In a relationship, takers operate from the belief that "you are responsible for my feelings of pain and joy. It is your job to make sure that I am okay".

Caretakers, conversely, operate from the belief that "I am responsible for your feelings. When I do it right, you will be happy and then I will receive the approval I need".Caretakers sacrifice their own needs and wants to take care of the needs and wants of others, even when others are capable of doing it themselves. Caretakers give to others from fear rather than love; in other words, they give to get.

Neither takers nor caretakers take responsibility for their own feelings and wellbeing. They often end up feeling angry, resentful, trapped, unappreciated, unseen, unloved, misunderstood, and/or unacknowledged. The problem is that takers and caretakers naturally find each other because of their need to feed on each others' weaknesses.

So if you're in a taker/caretaker relationship, what can you do to heal it? Well, relationships heal when individuals heal. When each partner works on reducing their own selfish needs, their relationship system heals. When each person learns to take full personal responsibility for his or her own feelings of pain and joy, they stop pulling on each other and blaming each other. When each person learns to fill themselves with love and share that love with each other, instead of always trying to get love, the relationship heals.

Learning how to take responsibility for your own feelings is one of the essential ingredients in creating a healthy relationship. This means learning to be conscious of what you are feeling and being open to learning about what you are doing to create your own feelings, instead of being a victim and believing that others are causing your feelings. Your feelings come from how you treat yourself and others, from what you tell yourself and what you believe about yourself and others, rather than from others behaviour. Blaming others for your feelings will always lead to major relationship problems.

Why not start today by taking your eyes off your partner and putting them squarely on yourself? In reality, you are the only one you actually have control over. You are the only one you can change. Only when you change will the relationship get better.

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2007-08-24T09:51:00.000+08:00

Managing Conflict with Family & Friends

Credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

Do you often feel the desire to lash out at your partner, family members and friends? Do you often find yourself questioning their love and concern for you?

When an upsetting event occurs - say a family member does something that you think is incredibly insensitive and stupid; or a friend says something you feel is hurtful - you have a choice of how you are going to explain it to yourself - what you are going to tell yourself about it. This will influence how angry, stressed, or upset you become over the event.

Because we take our family members and friends' affection for granted, we assume that they'll always see eye to eye with us or behave the way we expect them to behave. When we observe an action or remark that seems to contravene our expectations, we immediately suspect that they're trying to upset or disparage us.

Let's say your wife secretly buys you an LCD TV for your birthday. But because it cost so much money, you are displeased with her for not discussing it with you first. Besides you've always preferred plasma, it doesn't have the features you want, and so on. Your wife is left dumbfounded and you're fuming over why she would do something foolish like that. You've completely missed the point. You've ignored the wonderful motivation behind the gift and focused on the flaws.

Or say for example, you're having a beer with an old friend. The conversation turns to your success in life. Wanting to compliment you, your friend tells you how far you've come, how much of an inspiration you are to others, given your background with a dysfunctional family. But rather than seeing this as a compliment, you become offended, focusing on the fact that he brought up your family.

Learning to change what you tell yourself -your self-talk- can break the cycle of negativity that can often poison our minds when we get angry. We all have 'scripts' in our minds that tell us messages and stories about family members and how they behave.

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2007-08-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

more pictures...

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2007-08-21T13:48:00.000+08:00

just some pictures...

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2007-08-16T15:02:00.000+08:00

Thank you for doing all these for us. I wish we knew about it earlier.. All tlm students should look at what he did for us.. http://tlm-students-ngeeannpoly.fotopic.net/

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2007-08-15T00:32:00.000+08:00

Dear Mr Kenneth Tham.. you will be deeply missed and fondly remembered by each and everyone of us..

You have been my favorite lecturer in the whole of NP.. and you have definitely been a great mentor to TB17. I worked doubly hard for your modules because you were always encouraging us and you liked our tutorial group, unlike some other tutors.

You have been strict with our work.. but that means you really care about what we do.. you bring humour to class and lectures.. and we will never forget your smiles and laughter...

Remember at our class chalet when we tried to trick all the lecturers to get drunk so we could get tips for our exams.. which didnt work of course.. remember cindy's 21st birthday when you bought her the crystal abacus.. remember when our class promised to organise a potluck at your place.. but due to everyone's busy schedule.. these were all only just plans... no actions were taken... remember when you told me i had the exact same name as ur wife and you almost have the tendency to call me "dear" in class.. remember when we "borrowed" you from your class an had a tea break in NP's canteen 1.. that sadly.. had been the last time I saw you... and none of us would have expected it..

Now that you are no longer around, I wish strength for your family to go through these tough times.. I pray that you are happy where you are.. and I know that all your current and ex-students will miss you so much...

Life is really unpredictable.. we should really never take anything for granted...

Well.. that's all I have for now.. I pray for all around me to be safe and sound.. And I hope Andy Oh gets better too.. he looks pretty torn when we saw him at the wake today.. Be strong everyone...

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2007-08-07T10:09:00.000+08:00

Love Should Not Be Bartered

credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

You usually do what you're told or asked to, even when you really don't want to do it. You keep your grudges inside, but because you feel mistreated, you grumble, complain and have frequent bursts of anger. You feel suppressed, but just can't seem to say "no".
Does that sound like you?

If you're consistently suppressing your desires to accommodate other people's needs, even if it makes you really unhappy, perhaps you need a shift in self-perspective.
You probably feel that if you don't give in to others' requests or demands, that people will not love or accept you anymore. You believe that their "love" for you is based solely on the pre-requisite that you comply with their every wish.

People trapped in such relationships can't seem to refuse the requests of family members or friends. And their family members and friends have become so used to seeing them in the submissive role that they often think that's what makes them happy, so they leave them to it. These people also get feelings of self-worth from being the "victim", the "martyr", or the one who has to sacrifice his own needs to accommodate the desires of the people he loves. This is a false line of reasoning that he has allowed himself to believe.

But your family members and friends will just as easily love you even if you can't give in to their desires. Love does not require that you suppress your true self and happiness. Love does not need you to be dishonest about your real feelings.

True freedom is found in giving out of love and not out of fear. When we give out of fear of rejection, we are not really giving but bartering whatever we are giving in exchange for others' acceptance.

No one can respond to what others ask of them all the time. And you are just as worthy of love even when you can't accommodate the needs of others.

Is it time you allowed others to be responsible for their own reality? And for you to be responsible for your own happiness?

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2007-08-02T10:40:00.000+08:00

A Slice of Life presents Letters from Grandma and Grandpa

Credit to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

Most parents genuinely want the best for their children, and will provide for them as best they can. But children may not always understand their parents' difficulties. The reasons behind the parents' actions may not always be evident to the children, and may not be easy to convey.
Ho Meng Jang wants his grandchildren to be grateful for what their parents give them. In a letter to Ryan, Rodrique, Freya and Hana, he relates a story about his friend. He writes?
"Grandpa has a friend who has three children, two sons and a daughter. After giving birth to the last child, his wife became very sick. My friend then became the sole bread-winner. Because his income was small, he had to spend very frugally. To his children though, he appeared very stingy and mean.
Children do not always understand the reasons for doing things. They only know the things you do or do not do. You care or do not care. You love or do not love.
When his children were about to complete school, his wife passed away. He spent the life insurance money on his second son's university education. His daughter, the eldest, was unhappy that she was not given priority.
My friend explained, "We have money only for one. Let your brother go. He's a boy. He will need the education to get a good job and provide for this family. You are a girl. Your husband will take care of you. This is our tradition."
My friend felt very hurt saying that. But he felt he had no other choice. Later, he gave his third son his CPF savings to finance his university education. To him, he has done all he can as a father. But what he failed to realize was that in his preoccupation to provide for his sons' education, he had overlooked teaching them the value of sharing and of being grateful for what they received.
His sons became very wealthy and successful but did not take care of my aging friend. He lived alone until his daughter took him in. He felt saddened that he had not given her as much financial support as he did his sons.
So, Ryan, Rodrique, Freya and Hana, if there's one thing you must learn, it's to be grateful for what your parents can give you. Be grateful for what you have."

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2007-07-31T09:36:00.000+08:00

A Happy Marriage

Credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

So you've found someone you want to spend the rest of your life with.And you've decided to get married. There's no manual for a happy marriage, but you have a pretty good feeling that your love will help you weather the storms all relationships inevitably go through. In addition to that, here are some things to remember for a happy and healthy marriage.
1. It starts with you
The happier you are with yourself and your life, the more attractive you are to your partner. Another way to look at this is: if you were someone else, would you marry you? Start today to work on being the kind of person you would want to know, date, and marry. If you're not that kind of person, how can you expect your spouse to stay attracted or stay passionate?
2. There's you, there's him/her, and then there's we.
You don't have to give up your identity or be known as your spouse's partner.
It also doesn't work when two people each do their own thing without regard to their partner's wishes and feelings. Marriage is, and should be, more than cohabitation. As the marriage vows state, "two shall be as one". That "one" is neither you nor him. The "one" is a third entity: the relationship, the marriage, the "we".
The "we" is what you share, what you have in common, the nurturing that cannot be provided on your own. Think companionship, intimacy, and sharing.
3. Leave behind your emotional baggage
Are you really over your previous relationship? If not, you can't fully commit to your spouse. Likewise, if you are still Daddy's little girl or Mommy's boy, you are not in control of your own life. Therefore, you cannot fully enter into an adult relationship of mutual sharing and support. You can't be accountable to your spouse if you have to keep pleasing Mommy or Daddy.
4. Your marriage comes first
Marriage is the strongest bond between two people. Parents are here and one day they are gone. Children grow into adults and leave to start their own lives. Your spouse is the only person who is meant to stay with you the rest of your time on this planet. Women who say their children come first are usually unable to let their children grow up and become independent adults. These women are always surprised when their mates get tired of being number two, and decide to leave for someone else who WILL put them first.

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2007-07-29T15:33:00.000+08:00

my family finally saw javier.. all had fun carryin him and watching him... he is such a cute baby tt no one can resist!! well.. for one.. he is my godson! javier baby.. just cry lesser so that ur mummy can rest more k.. heee...

met up with the devils on friday.. and as usual.. i was early... i wonder y i always arrive early at every occasion... well.. almost every... we had dinner at maxwell... but surprisingly.. the four of us cant even finish 2 bowls of porridge n some tim sum.. we had so much left over k.. wonder how small our stomachs are... so it's not just me... hhaha...

reason we ate at maxwell was.. coz we wanted to head to scarlet for drinks.. after having thinking about it for close to one year... we finally made it there... as expected.. they loved the toilet!! everyone who goes there will be... n they were impressed by raymond too.. in his long coat... went up to breeze after our VISIT to the ladies.. breeze is the rooftop al fresco dining place.. however we were too full by den.. so only had drinks... biggest surprise of the nite was that some of the breeze staff still recognised me!! i of coz remember them.. but being the invisible person of all times.. i hardly expected them to remember me.. but ya.. they did.. well.. that made my dae.. however.. from wad i heard.. scarlet is now all different from my time... which is looooooong ago... but now.. im only back as a diner.. so none of my concern i guess... ooh.. n we had a discount there... i didnt ask for it.. but it was real sweet that they gave me their staff discount.. was reallie unexpected... thank you nana n nadya (i cant remember how to spell her name..)

n i met khairul n raymond too.. i bet they ar the oldest "birds" at scarlet... was glad to see them again.. n it makes me miss my job there.. well.. but nicest things are all left in the memories.. i shldnt think i will want to go through everything i did again.. haha... i shall ask angel n the rest to go back there for drinks somedae... n maybe we should visit naumi.. we might meet some old colleagues there... i wonder...

eliza was heading to a gay club after tt.. she asked if we wanted to follow to have a look... but me being me.. im nv the kind who likes to frequent these places.. so obviously i said no... but jieqi n cindy were pretty keen.. so i had no choice but to follow lor... we met eliza's eye candy n they brought us to look see.. nuthin much.. the club was actually pretty small.. pretty awkward to walk in as too many pple were starin at this bunch of gers in their terrain.. so a bit paiseh.. n didnt keep a look out for the handsome guys.. not like they will be interested or wad.. but i didnt really get a good look at them.. firstly it was too dark.. secondly they were starin at us more den we were starin at them... n khairul.. u r rite.. there's no point goin there.. no one is goin turn straight because of me! wahahaha...

oooh... n i have to mention this.. i suspect cindy gets high on little alcohol.. n maybe plus she was tired.. she was hilarious.. ask jieqi n eliza.. she was blabbering a bit.. n was laffing... well.. cindy... coke for u in future... or maybe u like earl grey like me too!! =D

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2007-07-20T11:35:00.000+08:00

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2007-07-20T11:28:00.000+08:00

Your Expectations of Your Partner

Credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

Most of us have expectations of our partner in a romantic relationship. Perhaps, you've grown up believing that lying to one's partner can never be justified. Or that a woman should always abide by her husband and is responsible for household chores. Maybe it's the belief that one should always give one's partner the priority in all arrangements. Or that if someone loves you, he or she should intuitively know your thoughts and feelings.

Society and upbringing can often instill in us misleading beliefs and values that limit our ability to develop healthy, meaningful relationships. We may subscribe to certain ideals that may not even exist in real life. We may expect our partner to miraculously grow into the person that he or she, in truth, will never be. We may linger in an abusive relationship, thinking that love means accepting our partner, no matter how violent or manipulative he or she is.

Whatever it is, expectations in relationships often lead to strife, frustration, disappointment, and sometimes, dissolution of the relationship. The termination of a relationship may not always be a negative thing; in fact, if two persons are at odds regarding expectations and mutual fulfillment, it may be better to end the relationship. But there are also many other couples who eventually choose to leave the relationship though they could've had a good chance of making it work. All because unrealistic expectations got in the way.
Think about your relationship. Is there a certain role you expect your partner to play? Is there an ideal you're hoping your partner will eventually become? Are you consistently disappointed when your partner falls short of your expectations?

Before we commit to a relationship, we have to understand that each person is an individual and comes with his or her own unique opinions, philosophies, values, quirks, and flaws. It's no different with your partner. If you go into the relationship based on what you think YOU will need from your partner, then you will very likely end up disillusioned.

A better way to assess a potential partner or to nurture an existing relationship is to commit to understanding the other person as well as you possibly can. What are her fears and insecurities? What are his opinions about money, friends of the opposite gender, children, or in-laws? What are her thoughts on honesty, charity, sexuality, or spirituality? What does he like or dislike about himself? What does she like or dislike about others?

Investing time in understanding the unique person your partner is and what he or she can or cannot fulfill is crucial to whether a relationship blossoms or dies a natural death. In the long run, it could save both you and the other person a lot of time and heartache.

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2007-06-27T10:19:00.000+08:00

back from genting.. will blog about that a bit later.. todae.. i want to announce the birth of my beloved godson Javier Tan Jing Yu.. his first cry was on 24th June.. i cannot describe how i felt when i first saw his photo (i was in malaysia still.. bad godson.. nv wait for me..).. i was so touched that i think i almost cried.. my sister had to stop me.. i think the rest felt the same too.. it's a kind of joy n relief that he is out healthy n all... adorable isn't he?

seeing sy n km with baby javier.. i feel so happy for them.. they look so ready for the baby.. sy.. though maybe u still dunno.. when i see u with javier it juz feels so rite.. like u noe.. javier is meant to be there in ur arms like rite now...

u have past 9 excrutiatin months of pregnancy n now u get to enjoy the happiness with ur bundle of joy.. i promise u tt no matter how vexed n pek chek u feel.. u are gonna be one happy parent.. u noe.. now i can already imagine all the love n pamperin javier is gonna get.. esp from the both of u..

it's hard to pen the kind of bliss that i see in the both of u now with the addition of javier.. so please stay happy always.. for wadever evil tots tt pop up along the way.. u still have us to help u think straight alrite? love both u n javier!! =)

2007-06-14T13:15:00.001+08:00

been a long time since the last post...

life is so routine that i feel i can just repeat my entries about my life.. heee.. that's reallie just it!

fell sick a while back.. thanks to kevin's evil viruses.. but all is well n good now i hope.. i cannot fall sick before my genting trip next week.. looking forward to the short getaway with my beloved sisters.. holiday!!!

come to think of it, no matter how we bug.. nag.. scream.. shout.. fight with each other.. it just cannot diminish the bond we have.. though they have been irritants many many times in my life.. but i noe they love me..

da jie will buy stuff for me because i say i want them.. just bought me a pair of socks the other day coz i mentioned i wanted.. er jie will go n eat ban mian coz i sae i wan to eat too n she will da bao for me.. jac will be the only one who will follow me when i feel like goin out on impulse.. n without a doubt.. she is the one i dote on most...

slowly as i grow up.. i really realise that i should always put my family before anything else.. not that they werent my top priorty since forever.. but my mindset is enforced now.. though i still get bullied pretty badly at home.. =P so now.. i live for my family n myself!

time pasts reallie fast now.. it literally flashes past.. todae its monday.. n den its fridae! reallie.. i get old too quickly now... eekss... i better spend some time to do the things i like.. n now.. my current interest is to pursue a bartending course.. but its 3k.. oh man.. i hope i strike lottery.. hee.. den i can do some temp jobs outside of work next time! i wan more money! now that i understand rich men are difficult to come by.. i probably have to earn my own moeny den... workin hard now!

till i become a rich woman. tartarz.... =D

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2007-05-15T09:24:00.000+08:00

Turning Pain into Blessings (Part 1)

At times of emotional pain, do you often hear people telling you that the best thing to do is to get over it and move on? That in order to embrace the future, you have to bury the past?
Well, I'm sure it was well-meant advice, but moving forward from pain takes more than just forgetting and forgiving. Moving forward is learning from your pain, your mistakes and your past to create a better future. It's self-improvement, while moving on, is simply self-preservation.

Simply denying the pain will probably lead to the same mistakes being repeated, the same lies being told, the same cycle of hypocrisy and despair.
There are a few important things to remember if you truly want to move forward from your pain and create a better future.

First, accept that everything in the past happened for a purpose. You can emerge either defeated or stronger from every painful experience. We all have that choice. The person you are today is the result of your past experiences, and in those experiences, no matter how horrible, lies the key to you becoming a better person.

Great gifts do not shine forth brightly under the grime of pain, but they are there. Until you can seek out and embrace the gifts hidden in those times of despair, you'll never be able to fully let go of the negative emotions surrounding them. Suppressing the hurt, denying the pain, simply gives them more power.

Credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

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2007-05-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. just read elaine's blog.. she seems to be pretty upset.. hope everything is ok for her.. knowing her for abt a decade.. i can sae this is the first time i've "seen" her flare up.. wadever happened must have teriibly affected n upsetted her.. i just hope things can get better! elaine jiayou! like pple alwiz sae.. time heal all wounds.. even if it doesnt fully recover.. it probably gets better.. just stay positive k.. let us noe if u need anything.. =)

anywae.. met fiona (from my gem class) last nite for dinner.. we had dinner at the ship restaurant in shaw centre.. n im surprised at the food they served.. i ordered seafood spagetti.. n it was served with crab meat.. as in the red n white kind.. im kinda like.. huh? hahah.. nv knew they served crabmeat in restaurants though... after dinner went to visit leon too (the gem class teacher).. kinda miss my class man... but heard the gem class is more difficult.. anywae.. THANK YOU FIONA FOR THE DINNER!!

n for the first time in my life.. i felt tt i actuallie have frens tt are reallie reallie very different from me.. i would tink most of my frenz share at least the same opinions as me on certain issues.. well.. it's until now tt i realise pple are reallie all different n unique in a sense... hmmm...

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2007-05-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

ok.. im cooked.. if anyone wants a taste of me.. pls juz drop me a msg.. u will let u take a bite.. im so burnt n in so much pain.. i officially hate the sun even more...

nv tot i will go sentosa in the dae.. but because of natalie.. my cute little niece.. i had to go to see her in her cute swimsuit.. resultin in myself being thoroughly burnt...

OUCHHHHHHHHH.. i cant ouch enuff...

p.s. huikie.. take good care of urself in beijing ya! sorrie tt we didnt send u off coz its reallie too early n im quite sure i cant wake up even if i set 10 alarms.. but i noe u will understand coz as usual im quite the spoilt brat in the group... heeee.. msg us in u need anything k!

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2007-05-04T13:21:00.000+08:00

woooooooooooooooooo.. had a loooong weekend break..

27th April
went for dinner at vivo with tb28 gang.. i reallie have to salute them for their lateness.. they are alwayz late! my god.. the next meetin.. i will probably turn up an hour later.. n i may still be the earliest.. was jianhua's bdae.. n was celebratin yishan's belated bdae too.. had dinner at a steak place called hog's breath.. but end up oni jh had steak.. ahhaha.. we reallie dun noe how to appreciate good food...

went to cafe del mar at sentosa after tt.. i muz sae the place is over-rated.. didnt turn out to be as fantastic as i expected.. though it was a pretty nice place to juz chill n hang around.. but unless u had a car.. u hardly can get there.. of coz unless u have too much money to spend on takin cabs.. n even with a car.. u muz walk a long distance or take a shuttle bus to reach the location from the car parks.. how ma fan can it get rite.. but overall.. it wasnt tt bad.. the cocktail tt meiling had was reallie good.. if i ever go back there.. will have tt!! yummy!!

28th Apr
went to touch up my hair colour.. but i truly think i wasted my money coz hardly anyone realised tt.. sat for for abt one hour plus and started gettin restless.. m not the kind tt can sit still for long.. mummy alwiz saes i have needles on my butt.. hahaha...

went to meet siuyuin after tt as she had to leave her house because they were fixin the air con... went to jln pemimppin to get some maternity stuff.. n she bought a nice top.. but in a horrific orange colour.. (ok... i juz dun like orange.. not tt the top was ugly or wad).. after which.. headed down to thomson for some hakka food.. as sy wanted so badly to eat shuan pan zi.. wont want javier to salivate so much when he comes out will i.. haha.. but sadly.. the restaurant was closed.. haha.. n there was absolutely nothin nice to eat along the whole stretch of restos n shops.. but after some not so nice food.. we headed down to novena square.. n had indulgence in some ice cream!! it was pretty good as alwiz.. sy muz have been happy coz there's no one there to nag at her not to have cold food.. hahah.. went to ue square too.. where there r so many baby stuff.. god.. kids these days do have a very very good life i muz sae...

29th Apr
went shopping the whole dae n had steamboat.. but the xian de lai place at bugis wasnt tt fabulous.. still prefer my tian tian.. heeeee..

30th Apr
met jieqi and cindy in the mornin... went back to np and wanted to sit in mr tham's lecture.. but apparently.. he no longer gives lectures.. which is a pity coz he reallie is a good lecturer n tutor.. it will be a loss to np the dae he leaves.. but goin back to sch feels pretty fun.. though i guess we looked a tad too old to be students.. saw mr ong too.. but didnt have a chance to go talk to him.. oni waved.. n surprisingly.. the lab technician recognised me.. he looks quite shocked when he saw me.. n asked me if i've graduated.. ahaha.. muz have given him too many troubles with my laptop durin my sch daes..

we headed down to jurong point to watch 200 pounds beauty (my 2nd time).. n i still think it's good. i can probably watch it a hundred times.. though i still love my phantom most.. after the movie.. we went to sing ktv.. since we had no idea where else to go.. hahha..

n finally.. the highlight of the dae.. Labour of Love play by NTUC. i enjoyed myself perfectly as the songs were reallie nice.. n the cast was pretty good.. cindy didnt enjoy it much though.. she felt tt it was quite borin.. but lucky for me.. jieqi shared my same sentiments.. if not cindy will slaughter me! hahhaa... took a non air con 151 back from nus after tt.. i cant believe there still are single deck non air con buses... eeeekz...

1st May
watched 2 movies online.. seducing mr perfect n my little bride.. both were pretty nice.. n the guy in the first movie was sooooooooooooooo handsome.. i'll marry him! hahhaa...

went for buffet dinner at le meridien in the evenin.. very ex.. so i tot i muz eat my worth.. so i ate 1 oyster n some salmon.. i usually nv ever take raw food unless its veggies.. but i concluded tt oysters are reallie not very nice.. hmmm.. probably wont eat them again...

so that's how my looooong weekend ended.. but im lookin forward to more holidaeS!!!

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2007-04-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

i would watch the phantom of the opera a thousand times if anyone is willing to buy me tickets to go watch.. it's been a reallie good musical.. something i wld sae worth me waiting for more than a decade long.. though christine was a bit short.. but her voice makes up for it.. love the phantom best.. maybe that's y he is the lead of the show.. his vocals was very powerful.. and carried emotions in them.. different scenes with voices to depict different feelings.. could literally feel my hair stand while they were singing.. raoul wasnt that handsome though.. hahah but anyhow.. i would rate the show a 9.5/10 coz its reallie goooooooooooooood.... I LOVE IT!

p.s. will anyone buy me another ticket pls? heeeee

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2007-04-16T12:01:00.000+08:00

i take that part abt gettin the degree back.. hhaa.. before i get drowned with reasons y i shld go do a degree rite now.. hahah.. i dunno how to explain this.. but to me.. its reallie juz a thing in the past.. i mean.. i alreadie put it behind me.. ok? haha..

well.. elaine is back in singapore.. though i haven reallie missed her as much as sy since i juz saw her in march.. but it feels great that she is back.. i love havin the feelin of frenz around me.. esp now tt im tryin to learn to treasure my life n the pple ard me..

if i nv had the chance to tell u how much i appreciate u all in my life.. now im tellin u.. i am thankful how each n every person that has come along my path in life helped me in some way or other.. i probably am the person i m todae because of u all.. esp my family.. if u all ever see this.. which is probably never.. I LOVE U ALL!!

hangin out at sy's place is like the new thing for us now.. haha.. love her sofa.. but seein her tired so easily nowadaes maybe we shld cut down goin to her place in case we mess it up.. well but if some pple can be as considerate as us.. it will be much appreciated by sy i guess.. but well well.. we all noe...

gonna be in the office without anne this whole week.. hope i dun die of stress..

anywae.. pls tag my tagboard... it's DEAD!

unpredictability of life..

2007-04-12T10:33:00.000+08:00

the unpredictability of life... things happen all the time.. n it's true that everyone lives n dies.. however.. when an accident happens.. dreams r shattered n lifes are disrupted..

alex.. i hope u get well soon.. pls be strong for ur family n all ur friends.. esp ur gf who witnessed the whole accident.. she muz be torn..

accidents happen in many different ways.. some are real tragic.. while some just throws a person off balance.. to my dearest friend.. as everyone keeps tellin u how happy u shld be.. it seems like deep down u never reallie thought u were livin in bliss.. though we noe u are probably goin thru a rough patch now.. we never reallie tot u were that unhappy..

words r easy to roll off the tongue.. i can tell u a million things that u shld be doin.. but i can nv understand how u feel because i do not stand in ur position.. all of us reallie hope that we can help u along the way.. but u must let us noe how.. at this moment.. u just need to noe that all of us are rite beside u.. or at least i am.. seeing u upset is the last thing we ever wanted..

regrets.. like i told u.. is something everyone has.. for one.. i very much regretted not goin to a uni.. although im leadin a comfortable live now.. i still think i mite be able to do better with a degree.. it's not like i cant do a degree now.. it's just that i cant commit myself to do it.. tt is probably one of my bigger regrets.. n there is obviously somethin i can do abt it.. but im lettin myself live with this regret by not actin on it.. in ur case.. i believe u can definitely work somethin out too.. unless u want to live with regrets ur whole life like me...

numerous thoughts are probably goin thru ur brain rite now.. but u have to noe for sure the answers to some qns.. do u ever regret the beginnin of everything? i hope the answer is no.. remember how u once told me that u can see a life n a future together? wad happened to all that? no doubt that everything has been brought forward.. but is that the reason to sway ur belief? the answers all lie with u..

if at any point in time u decide that u need a breather.. im here k.. n i hope u already noe tt... rite now.. u probably just need to sort out some of ur tots.. n maybe it's just ur preggy hormones actin up again..

dun strain urself too much.. =) we love u loads!

False Beliefs abt love...

2007-04-10T09:29:00.000+08:00

False Beliefs About Love

Article credit to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

In the last programme, we talked about how commonly-held false beliefs in love fool us into thinking that in order to win in the mating game, one has to be good-looking, rich, popular or clever. In this programme, let's go into the many other false beliefs about love that bring us much insecurity, discontentment, loneliness, and heartache.

First, the belief that "I'm not good enough to be loved." Here, our low sense of self-worth makes us behave in two possible ways - firstly, it can make us settle for something that we're not passionate about, simply because we think there is nothing better for us out there. It can also cause us to accept mistreatment and abuse from our partners.

And second, this can cause us to wreck perfectly tenable relationships through our insecurity, over-sensitiveness and jealousy. We literally chase our lovers away because we feel we're not good enough for them.

Next, the belief that "I'm not going to be able to get over an ex-partner". Now I'm not underestimating the pain of a breakup, but people who indulge this belief usually focus on the past instead of looking to the future. They replay good times, convinced that they have lost the love of their lives and they will never find happiness again. So they board up their hearts, spend their days reminiscing and moping, and get into all sorts of addictions just to artificially feel better. Again, this is "playing the victim", placing the responsibility for the pain on your ex and the past, while not reaching out for happiness yourself. This sort of protracted grieving also elicits sympathy from friends and relatives and may convince some of them that since you're hurting so much for so long, then you must've been damaged pretty bad. This kind of behaviour can become almost impossible to stop.

Next is the belief that "I will not be happy, I will not be success until I find the love of my life". If you believe this, you're ignoring the other joys of life like family, friends, nature, and pursuing your passions and ambitions. You are not a "half" of a whole, doomed to drift around broken and incomplete until you find your other half. You are a whole and full person in your own right. Besides, if you believe that you have to be in a relationship to be considered a success, it's likely you'll slide into casual relationships without careful thought or genuine emotion.
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i do think this is an article that many of us shld give it some tot.. =)

video..

2007-04-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

huikie made this video for siuyuin after the housewarming...

this is sooooooooooooooo nice.. do take a look..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D2hSVtvQP4s

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anyway.. todae is my parent's weddin anniversary.. happy 32nd anniversary to daddy n mummy! had a bbq todae.. n had a little choya to drink.. surprisingly.. it tastes very good.. n food todae was good too.. n i only ate half a hot dog! compared to the many many the last time round at east coast.. so please stop callin me hot dog!!

ah.. so hot now.. time to go shower!

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lastly.. the nail spa is opening on good fridae n they are offering a 20% of all products n services till end april.. location in bishan.. do come give us ur support!! do call or msm me for details!

it's true!

2007-03-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

saw this link http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/ on siuyuin's blog.. so i went to do it.. its quite true leh... freaky... ok.. here goes:

At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover......You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured

been tagged.

2007-03-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

okie.. as seen on the tag board.. i've been tagged by jieqi.. so im answerin it..

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

ok.. here goes.. 6 wierd things abt myself:

1. i really eat quite a bit.. small meals but many times a day.. n i snack a lot.. so wad's wierd rite.. as u all noe.. i hardly put on any weight..

2. though im a small eater.. i can eat a lot when im havin steamboat.. will be the first at the table.. n last to finish..

3. i alwiz think abt wad happens after pple are dead.. n i keep remindin myself tt i must tell mu children or family next time thru their dreams wad exactly happens after i die..

4. i can be rowdy only when im in a group.. when im alone.. im like duper quiet.. i alwiz dunno wad to say.. im quite shy i guess..

5. my tolerance level of pain is -100. ask my family.. its wierd coz i reallie cant even stand a little bit of pain..

6. i love to wear heels even when im 1.72m.. haaaaa.. box meee...

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anywae.. juz a little bit abt siuyuin's n kok meng's house.. went there on saturdae to help though was feelin a bit sick..mopped the floor.. wa kao.. reallie quite tiring.. but im happy i went coz we helped clean the house n bought the last of the furnitures at ikea... the tampines ikea is reaaaaaaaaaal big.. haha... n i love javier's room colour.. it's blueeeeeeee

n i muz have been a damn retard.. i started talkin to baby javier alreadie.. hope he recognises my voice when he is born!! im godma sherlyn my dear boy!

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2007-03-20T11:44:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i reallie blogged.. let's see if i lost touch..

next monday is the 49th day of my grandma's death.. i dunno if i shld sae time flies.. but feels like everything is happenin so quickly.. its kinda like its flashin past.. nuthin reallie sinks in the mind yet..

too much happenin in too short a period of time.. hopes that this will be a good year doenst seem so bright.. my bleak life.. but thru the rough times.. i do hope some rays of light can shine in between.. hope the nail spa business can be good after the official opening.. hope i can go for the diamond class.. hope daddy's blood pressure goes down back to normal.. hope brother can go to thailand to work as planned.. hope tt nuthin goes wrong anymore..

blame it on my bad luck maybe.. the trip to hkg wasnt very good.. compared to the september fair.. boss was reallie gettin on my nerves.. his endless complaints make himself seem greedy n ungrateful.. n puttin like everything on me (or maybe i put it on myself) is juz not fair.. he doesnt understand tt the fair is a trade show n not a pasar malam to lelong his goods.. well.. wad can i sae.. he is the boss.. anywae.. i've already told anne tt i dun wan to go to the september fair as long as the boss is goin.. hehe.. n she already like communicated with the boss that i shldnt go.. hopefully all goes well.. *keep my fingers cross*.. dun tink juz coz the company send me to hkg den im lucky.. try goin with my boss.. no amt of fun at the fair can make up to the mental torture tt i suffer from him!!

alrite.. enuff bout tt.. den as i mentioned.. jac fell sick there n got hospitalised.. she vomitted non stop.. yucks.. n her face was green..wahahah... =X.. but after restin for 2 daes.. we still brought her to disneyland.. didnt want to waste her one n only trip to hkg.. she will nv go anywhere on the airplane again.. haha..

after returnin to singapore.. started feelin very tired.. n have this horrible backache.. maybe im dyin.. but ya.. but im still back at work todae (on sick leave yesterdae).. n found a cute cow piggy bank on my table!! anne bought a damn cute moooooo bank for me.. n it literally goes moooooo when i insert coins!! its totally cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! MOOOOOOOOO.. heee

oh ya.. n over the weekends.. the whole entire family (meanin including my uncles n aunties) went down to spring court for dinner as it was like the official ceremony to acknowledge my godma godpa.. n for my godma to acknowledge my grandma as godma.. so i had to poor tea for my godparents.. nv did call my godpa "kai ye" until sunday.. i was reallie a bit shy.. haha.. alwiz only called my kai ma.. n they bought me this heart shape diamond pendant.. its reallie pretty! n im wearin it now.. so dainty... juz like me.. *cough cough*...

ok.. since its lunch time n im hungry.. i shall decide if i wan go da bao lunch soon.. till i blog again.. please take care EVERYONE..

p.s. salmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! let's meet up soon.. with everyone else! =D

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2007-03-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

saw this email this morning... it struck me that some of my friends may see some light from this article.. enjoy..

[pls note that this article is written, produced and presented by Eugene Loh. If you wish to share the scripts with others, please credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio']

Three Principles for Fulfilling Relationships
There are three principles that we should understand well before committing to any romantic relationship. If you're already in a relationship, studying these principles intimately and practicing them will help ensure a lasting, satisfying relationship.
Unrealistic expectations are usually what drive a couple apart, so the first principle to understand is that your partner does not owe you your happiness. This may sound strange because why else would we want to enter relationships if not to find happiness?
Sure, we should derive joy from our relationships but our partner should not bear the duty of giving us joy. Joy should be the spontaneous consequence of two people sharing feelings of love for each other, not the result of one party constantly striving to fulfill the other's needs. When we expect our partner to make us happy, we set up opportunities for failure, and each time our partner fails to meet our demands, we lose respect and affection for him or her. Besides, love doesn't mean consistently giving in to our demands. And love doesn't mean always making us happy. What gives our joy may not always be in our best interests. And love can sometimes mean hardship and pain.
The second principle for fulfilling relationships is to love your partner for who they are. Don't love a fantasy version of them you hope will emerge in the future. Many people enter a relationship thinking that in time, their partners will change, but this often doesn't happen. Your partner entered the relationship believing that this is what you fell in love with. He or she doesn't see any reason to change.
Loving your partner for who they are also means accepting their flaws, or what you deem to be flaws. Each person has attractive qualities as well as some habits or characteristics we may not find so beguiling. But we should love our partners in spite of the qualities we don't appreciate as much as the others. There is no perfect lover, like there is no perfect gadget. You're always going to have to trade off certain features for other ones you find more suited to you. And when you run into conflict over those undesirable features, your love for the whole product should be more than enough to make you overlook the flaws and still embrace your partner. So ask yourself "If my partner upsets me, will I be able to look past the words and actions and still love the person?"
The third and final principle is to love and respect yourself as much as you love and respect your partner. This is because if you feel inadequate compared to your partner, you might become obsessed with fulfilling his or her needs and neglect your own. Over time, your partner will learn to take you for granted and you will no doubt begin to feel like you got the short end of the stick.
Maintaining fulfilling relationships is no easy job, but understanding and practising these three principles should help you a great deal.

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2007-03-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

hong kong sux... work was bad.. holidae was bad... my sister got warded in the hong kong hospital.. well.. wad more can i sae.. no time to blog now.. will come back again...

till then.. elaine.. please take good of urself.. there's reallie nuthin we can do.. the only one tt can help u is urself.. jiayou orh!

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2007-02-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

most of you may already know, my paternal grandma passed away last tuesdae.. after battling with the evil cancer cells that put her through so much pain, she finally said goodbye to all her suffering last week..

it has been difficult and very sad to say goodbye.. but i've been a good girl.. i've cried minimum so that ah ma can go in peace.. the whole funeral has been nuthin but a drama.. i reallie wonder wad all my grandma's children are doing.. haiz.. i only feel sorrie for my grandma to have daughters like those.. money is all they can see..

well..but like i always told my mum.. we can ignore wad they sae.. no matter how they put my family down by sayin we cheated ah ma of her money n stuff.. we noe it in our hearts that we were the pple that took care of her for the past decades.. n u noe wad? heaven has eyes to see.. so im not afraid.. the power of tongue is really dangerous.. but those tongues where rumoured rolled of, they have to be prepared to serve their kharma...

the problem of the wake has been bothering the whole family for quite some time.. n eventuallie we realised that it's just my father's sister that was behind it all.. she was being a bitch n backstabbing everyone.. she was tryin to "tiao bo" the family.. but little did she expect tt everything will come to light.. n worst thing is.. she is goin around tellin all my other cousins (her sisters' children) that my family is bad n stuff... n some pple stupidly believe her words.. oh puh-leaseeeeeeeeeee.. but.. whatever.. after last week.. i will probably not see them ever again.. even if i do.. i wont address them.. tell me im rude.. but i dun give a damn...

soooooo.. whatever it is.. it's over.. ah ma has now gone to somewhere where she is free from all pains n sufferings.. n where she doesnt have to see her unfillial children..

goodbye ah ma.. u'll forever stay in my heart n memories.. i'll never forget how you used to fan me to sleep when i had nightmares when i was young.. n how i'll put powder on ur back for u... though i hated ur naggings.. i noe im goin to miss it all now that u're not here.. please bless our family from where u are.. we'll miss u very very much..

n to finish off.. i'll like to thank everyone that send me their condelences.. esp huikie, audrey, marie, deborah, cindy, jianhua, anne, jereldine n kevin for comin to the wake.. it reallie warms me to know that all u pple care so much.. a very big hug to all of u.. reallie reallie a very big thank you =D

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2007-01-18T10:02:00.000+08:00

i lifted this story from an email from the radio station.. i like it.. its inspiration..

There was once a man who got so sick of life, he quit his job, severed all relationship ties and headed into the woods for one last reflection.
There he saw a meditating wise man and told him why he was there.
"Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" the man asked.
The wise man responded to his question with another question, "Look around? Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", the man replied.
The wise man continued, "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
On the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
On the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit. On the fourth year, yet again nothing came out from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit.
Then on the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was small and insignificant. But just six months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the last four years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
All this time that you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. The growth of the bamboo was no magic. Yet it towers above the fern in the end. Don't compare yourself to others.
The bamboo has a different purpose from the fern. But together they both make the forest beautiful. The wise man then looked pointedly at the man and said, "Your time will come. Take your roots and you shall rise high just like the bamboo."

credits to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life'

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2007-01-14T17:24:00.000+08:00

i dun understand how bad things can come all at a go.. but the worst of the lot is that my paternal grandma is very very sick.. n according to the doctor.. it's very much juz boddin for time before she goes.. the most optimistic outlook is 3 months.. but from wad im seein.. i dunno if we can still celebrate the last chinese new year with her..

99yrs is a ripe old age i noe.. but havin to see someone so close go is hard.. those of u who noe me well enuff will noe how bad i am at sayin goodbyes.. n this time round its forever.. i grew up with my grandma.. she stayed with us since i was born.. or maybe before tt.. when i was younger.. i used to run to sleep with her in her room when i had nightmares.. though i no longer do that.. i still remember.. im her fave of my sisters.. she always asked me to do stuff for her.. she used to reward me with 20cents when i was younger.. but as everyone grows up n gets bz.. we spend lesser time with her.. n u stay findin her naggy.. but when u noe its time.. its reallie quite hard to get over.. it's easy to tell my er jie not to keep cryin everytime she sees my grandma.. its reallie heartbreakin coz she is like gettin more frail by the dae.. im prayin hard tt i can take everything well..

i dunno.. though it seems like im takin things as they come.. i cannot imagine when it reallie happens.. i wan to be brave.. let me be... please let me be...

but through all the bad news.. at least i heard a piece of good news.. sy's baby is a boy!! baby xavier!! =D it's probably the only thing im lookin forward to.. godma is awaiting ur arrival xavier!

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2007-01-03T09:42:00.000+08:00

Dearest Siuyuin and Kokmeng, this is the speech that I promised to make but failed to deliver.. im reallie reallie sorrie.. but i hope u both like it anywae.. =D here goes..

Hi, good evening everyone, allow me to introduce myself, the name is Sherlyn, if you like or you can also call me cupid. =P I’ll like to dedicate the speech that I’m going to make, to the bride and groom.

To begin, I’ll first like to congratulate Kok Meng and Siu Yuin. On behalf of everyone here, we’ll like to send the both of you our warmest blessings.

Next, I’ll like to thank the both of you for letting me be part of this very special day, to let me share your joy and happiness.

Having known the both of you for so many years, I can say that I’ve seen you both grow and change over time. Siuyuin has evolved from the loud and crazy IJ girl to the pretty bride we have here today. Kok Meng, from the boy, to the man who he is today, especially after his NS. And now, the head of his own family.

Knowing how much you’ve given up for this relationship, I can see you both treasure each other very much. The changes you’ve made and the compromises reached just prove to everyone here today how much in love you both are. Just last week, Siuyuin told me how blessed she feels to be marrying Kok Meng today and not anyone else. Although I have yet to hear it from the man himself, I’m sure he feels the same. Ask me how I know, from the walk at East Coast Park where I secretly shot arrows, the prawning trip that he was baiting for something that wasn’t even close to a prawn, the “Cars” cartoon that felt so romantic and he witnessed the power of his magnetic shoulders, and etc. etc. I know. I know just how much you adore Siuyuin. Am I not right Kok Meng? And just a couple of days back, Kok Meng’s buddies mass messaged Siuyuin to tell her how much the groom loved her. (How sweet =D).

Though the both of you have been through some rough patches, especially during the preparation of the wedding, you’ve successfully overcome all obstacles along the way and arrived at where you are today – happily married.

Forever may seem to long a word to use, but today, I wish the both of you eternal bliss and all the happiness in the world. From today onwards, please create all the beautiful memories as you embarked on this new journey in life together.
Having said all that, I’m ready to finish off, but before that, once again, from the bottom of my heart, CONGRATULATIONS! =)

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2007-01-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

i have loads to sae.. let me sort them out by date..

24th Dec 2006
christmas eve dinner with my beloved rc mates.. dinner was obviously good as usual.. i helped the most!! hk prepared dinner n i was her assistant.. though i ran away when she started fryin.. i came back to help..heee... dinner was reallie yummylicious! n we witnessed laura's "good appetite" n jean's capability at making agar agar.. its reallie not tt difficult jean.. try harder =P

also.. thank you laura for the bag.. n jean for the top (though it's too biiiiiiiiiiiiig).. n elaine for the nail polish.. i love nail polishes =) n thnx hk for allowin us to host the dinner at ur place..

25th Dec 2006
hen party where the bride sleptttttttttttt... pregnant mummies need sleep.. i slept too.. haha.. but breakfast at macs the next dae nv fails to make my dae.. there's nuthin a macdonald's big breakfast cant cheer up.. ( or so i tot until...)

26th Dec 2006
met tb28 peeps for dinner at secret garden.. which apparently i turned up an hour late.. i was waitin for raine!! not my fault.. hehe... the place is reallie secretive.. cant find it at all.. i doubt i can go back there agn without gettin lost.. was refused entry to sit indoors as i was in short n slippers.. sorrie peepz =P.. bought vouchers for the gift exchange.. n i got a "BITCH" cup n champange soap for in return.. ziyu.. the "champange" is meant for baths.. not drinkin.. wahha.. u alcoholic!! n thnx jianhua for sendin me back though ur fren was cryin at vivo.. i hope she's ok!!

27th Dec 2006
it's the big dae.. Siuyuin's n Kok Mengs wedding.. i woke up late as usual.. but i rushed there ASAP.. i have skills to do full make up (full in my opinion) in 15min =D.. prepared quite a lot of stuff to play with the groom n "brothers" but due to time constraint (at the moment) we opened the door with oni 18bucks.. we reallie tot we were late.. but the groom lied.. we had a good 45min tt we were not informed of.. pig.. bluff us.. the poor gers n to suffer tauntin from the brothers the whole dae tt we opened the door with 18bucks.. nvm.. we all learn from mistakes..

weddin is a reallie beautiful thing.. n the most beautiful is of course the bride! i wan to get married too!! anywae.. after we went ard to km's grandma house.. sy threw the bouquet.. n jean was kinda forced to catch it.. wahhaha... jackson.. u noe wad to do ah.. hehehe...

dinner was next.. everything went well.. took a lot of pics.. ate alot.. cried a bit.. u noe.. the tears cldnt stop.. but eveything ended on a good note.. though we were all tired.. i didnt give sy n km any red packet coz i gave them in a money holder.. n i tot it was common.. but apparently everyone else gave ang bao.. wahhah.. u all too auntie le la.. awahahha... n sy 200 is reallie not a lot.. u r our best fren leh..

anywae.. i wan to apologise to sy.. i noe u wanted to hear the speech i make very much.. im so sorrie i didnt make it in the end.. but i'll post it up tmr.. please visit my blog again tmr! i promise i will be a good godma.. dun be angry ah!!

but at the end of all the happy things.. i heard a piece of bad news.. my mum was hospitalised.. she choked on a piece of fish bone.. n it was real serious..

28th Dec 2006
visited mum in hospital.. n i cried seein how much in pain she was.. went for 2 surgery in a dae.. i cant imagine how much she is sufferin.. first operation failed when they spent an hour twenty minutes n cant find the bone that was lodged in her throat..

second op ended when the cant find the bone again.. but thankfully.. it seems like the bone came out when my mum vomitted before the op.. but she was sent to the high dependency ward after the ops.. me.. my da jie n xiao mei stayed in the hospital tt nite.. we were worried as the doctor said she wasnt out out danger n needed to be monitored for infection...one word.. SCARED..

29th Dec 2006
went to work from the hospital.. n fell asleep at work as i was too tired.. but thank god we had half dae in the office.. i went to pray durin lunch hour.. n thanks to the uncle n his mum at the temple i prayed to the gods successfully.. if u wan to noe.. i was totally lost when i went in the temple.. i didnt noe wad to do at all.. i bet the auntie offered to help when she saw my "huh" look.. hahah..

went to stay in the hospital for the whole dae again... cldnt stay overnight anymore.. so we left at night to go home..

30th Dec 2006
nuthin much.. still slackin in the hospital..

31st Dec 2006
i had to miss deborah's birthdae party.. im reallie reallie sorry deb.. i very much wanted to go u noe.. u are like my only telepathic best fren.. i got everything prepared weeks b4 ur party.. n to think i cant attend in the end.. im glad u liked everything.. n cindy was jealous tt i made u a card.. haha.. im sure u had fun at ur bdae.. post up the pictures soon!! will buy u lunch sometime next week k!

i also missed laura's party.. sorrie laura.. i noe u're goin back to canada soon.. but i just cant go.. sorrieeeeeeee.. i wan to noe wad they bought for u.. lemme see it somedae! meet up b4 u leave too k =)

mummy was transferred to the normal ward.. everyone was super relieved.. n thanks cindy for comin by to visit my mum n pickin up deb's present for me.. xie xie ni.. i very much appreciate tt =)

1st & 2nd Jan 2007
nuthin much.. hospital again..

lastly.. thank you everyone who prayed so hard for my mum.. im sure u all noe how much my family means to me.. thank you for all the phonecalls n smses to show so much concern for both my mum n myself.. i noe u all r worried tt im unable to take it.. n tt i'll get too tired.. but no worries.. im still up n jumpin.. juz a little bit sleepy.. i reallie reallie am thankful tt i have all of u by my side durin this period of time.. thanks also for all the offers for visits.. i didnt wan to trouble u all.. zhen de zhen de xie xie ni men =)

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2006-12-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

me plus bride n groom
junxu.. laura.. bride.. n groom
sy n elaine
wedding album
laura.. elaine n me
sy n me
sy n me
dinner

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2006-12-28T00:49:00.000+08:00

sy n hk
sy n elaine
me n sy
bride n groom
sy n jean

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2006-12-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

siuyuin n laura
siuyuin and hukie
the "golden couple" (to be)
siuyuin n jean
us..
siuyuin n me
the bride
siuyuin n elaine
siuyuin n huikie

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2006-12-07T15:34:00.000+08:00

oh man.. i haven blogged in the loooooooooooooongest time... its just that too many things are happening rite now tt i have no time to blog! i tryin to keep my life busy and enriched.. i dun wan to grow old with nothing!!

let's see.. for now.. i've graduated from NGI's Gemstone Identification Course.. after many weeks of faithfully goin to class.. n lookin at stones till im almost crossed eye.. i've finally graduated! though i didnt do well for my practical (due to my own carelessness).. i did pretty well for my theory.. 46/50!! m i smart or wad.. wahaha.. no la.. juz that u have to noe how to spot the questions..

ok.. n dae of the exam.. my grandma fell down n is admitted into sgh.. she is still warded now due to a fracture in her right hip.. see looks so frail.. it muz kill half of her to noe that she cant walk for at least a couple more months.. i cant imagine me like tt.. but if in any *touch wood* case tt im admitted to hospital.. please do come visit me k.. i dun wan to be alone.. dun worry sy.. we're be there to visit when it's ur turn (not to break a bone but to be in hospital la)!

ooooohh.. n did i already mention? sy n tkm are gettin married? did i already blogged abt that? i cant remember though everything seems like it's a long time ago.. anywae.. weddin speech is on the way.. dun hurry me la.. i will finish it.. erm.. soon.. heeeeeeee..

finally bought the dress for the weddin.. n bought my outfit for deborah's birthday.. coz she sae cannot too slack ma.. so i've decided wad to wear le lor.. n i've decided on her present too.. she better like it.. if not im gonna murder her.. i changed my mind so many times.. she's juz not an easy person to buy presents for.. n cindy said she wanted a levis watch or a camera.. it's outta my budget la!! im buyin ur present aloooone.. n dun u just love surprises??

oh yes.. another great achievement is the beginnin of my yoga class.. been to 2 classes ready.. though im still inflexible.. im kinda likin it.. even if my muscles ache.. i feel like im relaxin myself at yoga.. =P

alsooooooooo.. im gonna take a manicure course next.. dun i like just have so many things to do! not enuff time.. but havin too much time makes me feel a bit useless.. so bein occupied is good..

at least while bein occupied.. i dun have to tink so much.. heard a piece of disappointin news todae.. i have nuthin to sae anymore..i believe to each his own.. n there's only this much i can do isnt it? wadever it is.. we all have to learn to let go.. im happy as i m.. but i often wish tt pple ard me are too.. but choices in life are always difficult to make arent they.. well.. so be it.. good luck anywae..

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2006-11-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

Another nice email i read.. credits to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life'
Read it n think about abit k.. here goes..

Staying Empowered During Stressful Times

It happens to the best of us. No matter how adept we become in handling difficulties, solving problems, and staying optimistic, there will be times when the once brightly-lit road becomes foggy. We can't perform at 100% 100% of the time. Sometimes we trip, and occasionally, the mistake can feel so severe that it gives our previously rock-solid confidence a resounding crack. So what do we do when we start to feel lost? How can we remain empowered and positive through stressful times?

Well, firstly, many people think that asking for help or guidance is a sign of weakness. It's needy, they feel, something that the truly capable will never request, even though they may really need the support. This is a mistaken view. The giving of help need not be a simple handout. When we give, we also receive. And if we are open to the gift of help, we may yet gain the strength that we can use to help others in future. You don't have to be the victim in need of charity. Make it a partnership; something that benefits all parties involved either immediately or in the future.

When our confidence takes a beating, we may feel like withdrawing from society, from the communities in which we used to participate. But this simply strains your self-worth even more. So, even if you're in a particularly stressful state, continue to tap into any groups of people with whom you have positive, interactive relationships on an ongoing basis. Sometimes, when everybody expects you to shrivel and disappear, simply showing up will be enough to give you and your community that much-needed boost.

During nerve-racking times, it's also important that you remain real and true to yourself. It's easy to feel as though you've become half the person you used to be. But staying positive and re-connecting with your passions and life purpose will help a great deal. Stay centred and self-respecting, but be careful not to overdo it as to appear arrogant or delusional.
When we're at our lowest ebb, when we're feeling so deflated that we think we cannot possibly have anything more to give? we can very often surprise ourselves. Mountaineers, long-distance runners, and other endurance sportspeople know that even if it feels as if we have only one remaining breath, if that breath is spent giving ourselves one final push, we can often achieve the seemingly insurmountable. So give of yourself. Do what you can to still help others. The joy of giving from the heart may just be enough to bridge that gap between stress and joy, and give you a whole new positive direction.

And remember to always turn towards love. Grow towards greatness. At the end of the day, there are only two choices - love or fear. If you can love without fear, you will never be beaten. can use to help others in future. You don't have to be the victim in need of charity. Make it a partnership; something that benefits all parties involved either immediately or in the future.
When our confidence takes a beating, we may feel like withdrawing from society, from the communities in which we used to participate. But this simply strains your self-worth even more. So, even if you're in a particularly stressful state, continue to tap into any groups of people with whom you have positive, interactive relationships on an ongoing basis. Sometimes, when everybody expects you to shrivel and disappear, simply showing up will be enough to give you and your community that much-needed boost.

During nerve-racking times, it's also important that you remain real and true to yourself. It's easy to feel as though you've become half the person you used to be. But staying positive and re-connecting with your passions and life purpose will help a great deal. Stay centred and self-respecting, but be careful not to overdo it as to appear arrogant or delusional.
When we're at our lowest ebb, when we're feeling so deflated that we think we cannot possibly have anything more to give? we can very often surprise ourselves. Mountaineers, long-distance runners, and other endurance sportspeople know that even if it feels as if we have only one remaining breath, if that breath is spent giving ourselves one final push, we can often achieve the seemingly insurmountable. So give of yourself. Do what you can to still help others. The joy of giving from the heart may just be enough to bridge that gap between stress and joy, and give you a whole new positive direction.

And remember to always turn towards love. Grow towards greatness. At the end of the day, there are only two choices - love or fear. If you can love without fear, you will never be beaten.

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2006-11-02T15:58:00.000+08:00

i stumbled across this article when im looking thru the wedding speeches for reference.. this is like the ultimate romantic thing a husband can say at the wedding.. i will kill myself just to have a wedding with a speech like tt made by my husband.. here goes...

My Best Friend's Wedding Speech
Published by Ng Chin Leng, with permission from Tan Boon Gin1 September, 2000

Distinguished guests, ladies and gentlemen.
Thank you for gracing this occasion with your presence here today. It really means a lot to us to have so many family and friends come and give us your congratulations and your blessings. We are really touched and honoured. Thank you again for coming.
I would like to take this opportunity to say a few words to just some of you who have made a difference in my life.
My old friends, Chin Leng, Kevin, Gerald, Jeremy, Yee Siang and Daniel. Each one of you entered my life at just the right time, so that at every point in my life, from childhood to university, I managed to find that one good friend to hang out with, to pour out my soul to and to lean on. You guys are the best friends a boy and a man could ever have.
To Cheng, Michelle, Leigh, Sam and Pam, Val's friends and bridesmaids. Thank you for contributing so much to this wedding, and thank you as well, for being my friends and not just knowing me as Val's other half.
To my Aunty Wah Wan and my Uncle Chang Choon, thank you for your love, care and encouragement, especially when I had the accident with my eyes just before my A levels.
To my mum,I have always relied on your strength of character, your faith and your goodness and I will always cherish the times we spent together, especially when I was a little kid, and you tried to be the brother and sister to me that I never had.
To my dad,who through the many little things that he does, and thinks that I do not notice, but I do, shows that underneath that gruff exterior is a man who loves me dearly.
And to you both, thank you for showing me by example and through your love what it takes to make a good marriage and be good parents.
To Val's parentsThank you for bringing up such an amazing woman.I love your daughter and I will do everything in my power to live up to your hopes and dreams for her.
And to you Valerie, thank you for loving me as you do, unconditionally, despite knowing me through and through, thank you Val for saying Yes and agreeing to spend your life with me. I am without doubt the luckiest man in the world.
People ask me all the timeHow do you know that Valerie's the one for you? How do you know?
Well, for me the answer is that it's a gradual process of different degrees of illumination over time.
I first thought that maybe she was the one when I saw her one day in the NUS canteen and her hair was tied up with a maroon hairband and she smiled, and it took my breath away.
I first thought that she quite possibly was the one when she brought me to the wake of the mother of this old clerk who worked in her office, and there was no one else there so she sat down and talked to this old man for an hour and I saw the compassion in her face.
I first thought that she was very likely to be the one when I was going through a period when everything I did seemed to go wrong and she told me that the only thing that I ever needed to do right was to love her.
I first thought that she was probably the one when once she was feeling down and I did something to surprise her and when she threw her arms around me I realised that her happiness meant more to me than anything else in this world.
And I knew for sure that she was the one when in the middle of proposing to her I suddenly lost confidence and I asked in a moment of self doubt could you marry me instead of will you marry me and she took me by my shoulders, looked me squarely in the eyes and said in a clear firm voice, I will.
And that ladies and gentlemen, is how I knew then and how I know now. Thank you.

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2006-10-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

an article for tot =)

Adjusting Your Attitude

It's all about attitude, isn't it? Change your attitude and you can change your life. Change your attitude and you can change the world. Change your attitude and you can be successful and happy?
Well? yes! But attitude can be everything and nothing. Some people think that having a positive attitude means the inability to accept just how miserable this world is. Some people think it's all about laughing everything off. Some even think it's juvenile.
Well, attitude is much more than simply seeing things in a positive light. That's how people typically begin to migrate from pessimism to optimism, but that's just the start. A positive attitude is not something you get from simply putting on a new pair of glasses. It requires constant attention, diligence and discipline.
Do you think that the motivational gurus and venerated religious leaders of this world never falter? Like us, they are human after all, and like us, they are touched by moments of doubt, sadness and envy. Considerably less, of course, but that's because they've learnt how to consistently adjust their attitude towards their faith. And they can often do it so quickly, that to us, they appear positive and motivated all the time.
Here are some ways you can learn to hone the speed at which you adjust your attitude towards the positive.
Firstly, learn to let go of negative thoughts and emotions as quickly as you can. Remember that emotions like anger and envy destroy only yourself and the people you care about. They only need to get a hold on you for a short while for you to wreck an entire life. So learn to catch these emotions and release them.
Maintain relationships with people who share a similar attitude towards positivity. This sounds easier in theory actually. Some negative people can be really enjoyable to be around. Pessimistic people are not necessarily pallid hypochondriacs who keep to themselves. They can be disarmingly friendly and sociable. But take a deeper look at the themes they usually like to bring up during conversations and you'll realise that they're usually idle gossip, griping sessions coloured with plenty of humour, or irresponsible desires that lead to pointless ventures.
And input positive material. Certainly the occasional Korean romantic tragedy or slasher flick is harmless, but the balance should be tilted towards information that broadens your mind, enhances your knowledge, and lifts your spirits. You can get this from an endless array of books, movies, music, magazines, newspapers, and so on. This type of data increases your feeling of self-worth and has many more practical and beneficial applications.

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2006-10-24T02:48:00.000+08:00

the unpredictabilty of life..

somethings are just not planned for aren't they.. when u dunno to rejoice or to worry.. to celebrate or to mourn.. u probably r lost.. but please noe tt wadever it is.. i still love u the way u r.. i will do all in my capabilty to help u coz u noe how impt u r in our lives.. nuthin to worry.. im alwayz juz a phonecall awae.. (erm.. ttz besides when im sleepin k?).. i hope this situation will take a turn for the better so we can all share the joy.. i noe ur pain but i cant sae i understand.. wad i can do though.. is to stand rite behind u to ever catch u when u fall.. but please dun crush me hor.. im prayin for u.. i believe the chapter will close in a perfect endin (coz i said soooo).. i will be waitin for ur good news..

2 things in a row in a single nite is a bit much to absorb.. seems like another fren is facin some crisis too.. but since he is willin to take a step back to commence on a new beginnin.. i do think everything will turn out ok.. its never too late to learn.. but i hope u noe wad u wan from now on..

a short entry to encourage the pple involved.. though u may or may not see this.. im prayin hard for u.. n i will do wad i can to help u.. juz nothin too extreme k.. im a weakling.. =)

to parties involved in situation 1.. i love u n wadever tt comes ur way i still do..

to party no. 2.. yao jiayou orh.. im keepin my fingers crossed for u.. arent i too nice to be doin this for u? ok.. im juz nice.. =P

ok ttz it.. not reallie in the mood to blog.. juz a short poem from somewhere..

When you get to the end of all the light you know and it's time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: either you will be given something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly.

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2006-10-20T13:11:00.000+08:00

i muz be out of my mind to be bloggin now.. im in the office.. quite alone actuallie as anne is on leave n jereldine is on mc as she sprained her leg.. imagine the kinda boredom im facin.. esp when im so sleepy.. i can feel my mood startin to turn bad.. oh no.. wad is happenin to me..

online shoppin doesnt seem to help either.. suddenly.. juz suddenly for a moment.. i feel a bit lost.. maybe im reallie too tired.. i haven had a reallie good nite sleep since last fri.. i shall have on tonite k.. n i shall not wake up tmr.. lemme be sleepin beauty for a bit.. not the beauty part though.. the sleepin part..

something nice happened to me again todae.. my classmate from the gemstone class came todae to buy some stuff.. n we talked a bit.. im happy coz we reallie tok in class.. so its like gettin to noe another new classmate.. im wierd arent i.. happy over such issues..

im not all social like cindy saes i m.. im actuallie very very extremely shy.. therefore makin me very anti social coz i dun dare to approach or start talkin to pple first.. maybe workin in scarlet helped me a bit coz its the nature of the job tt u r friendly n helpful.. not like i dun make frenz at all la but.. well.. if u noe me u noe wad im sayin la.. haha.. my tots are jumbled up rite now as im ultimately tired..

i wonder how long more i can last.. im 4 hr 15 mins awae from knockin off work.. i shall try my very best to keep those droopy eyelids open..

anywae.. took half dae leave yesterdae to go shoppin with sy.. was supposed to have lunch with elaine too... but oh well.. things happened n she had to go back to hall.. but lunch anytime my dear ger.. juz dun be upset anymore k.. WE R ALL BEHIND U..

we had sushi for lunch n the evil sy kept forcin me to eat.. for gods sake i at max can oni eat 3 plates lor.. n she keep wantin me to eat more.. she muz be jokin ah.. my stomach was burstin.. so the vain me went for eyebrow trimmin yesterdae at shu umera after our HEAVY lunch.. the ger at taka is not bad too.. paragon de oso not bad.. but their make-up is really too ex.. not for the avg workin ger like me.. im toooooo poor..

wanted to buy shoes n skirt yesterdae but didnt reallie get anything in the end.. me n sy walked into trendy zone n suddenly all the sales gers stared at me.. i was so intimidated i left.. i didnt even have to see them to noe they were starin at me man.. shoes how intense it was.. sy saw it too.. wads there in a skinny ger to stare at? cant they lemme buy shoes in peace? so obviously me n sy hurriedly got out of the scary sales ger shop.. haha.. there r reallie no nice shoes to buy now man.. y y y y y y? n no nice skirts too.. later i go heartland mall with cindy look look see see.. hee..

im boooooooooooooooored.. i hope i have company now.. =(

no more energy to type as i havent had lunch yet.. shoooooooooooooo..

p.s. deb i do blog!

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2006-10-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

back again with new post! im juz too bored n stressed at the moment..

it's been a long time since i felt stupid.. it has nv really been too tough for me in sch or wad.. not sayin im smart or wad.. but i kinda think studyin is so much easier den doin the gemstone course.. i so wanna give up.. but i have to persevere! i nv reallie wanted to do anything so much so i guess i have to HANG ON.. cheer me on peepz!

anywae.. was just tellin anne in the afternoon abt sy's bdae.. n i remembered her fren tellin me i dun look like an ij ger.. im sooooo hurt.. the only uniform i wore besides kindergarden was probably the ij pinafore.. 10yrs of tt n i cant even rub of the "feel" of it.. sobz!! anywae.. he is quite lame.. oopz.. im sorry!

im like aching all over now.. maybe coz i carried some ice.. haha.. im so lousy.. im gonna train up some muscles soon! joggin joggin!

thinkin of goin to relax myself or something.. maybe go do mani pedi on wed with my mum.. the family kinda had a big fight in the house todae n i was quite affected.. so while everyone thinks everything is so pretty in my life.. i actually still have problems.. eekz.. i hope i will get over it soon!

ok.. as usual.. lz to write anymore.. hee.. till i feel like bloggin again.. muackz!

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2006-10-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAE SIUYUIN!!

oh man.. her birthdae chalet was great.. ok.. at least for me.. everyone seemed quite happy.. includin ben.. it's a good start i hope! anywae.. if u need details of the bdae party.. it will probably be updated on the bdae girl's blog.. haha.. see it there... prob pictures too.. but not too many la..

oh yes.. for those of u who dunno.. i've enrolled myself in a gemstone identification course.. n it gets a little too difficult at times i guess.. maybe im plain stupid... but wad can i do rite? no one has cure for stupidity yet.. oh.. n one of my classmates (the whole class consists of 5 students includin me) stays in hougang too.. i will go ask where tmr.. scully neighbour sia.. haha.. maybe i have a cab or bus partner den.. hehe..

n i tink i will take up yoga classes in nov too.. im gonna enrich my life! met the devils on fridae nite to pass them their presents.. i hope they like it.. airflown k.. passed deb her present too! she better like hers.. hers was the most ma fan present coz i had to hand carry it.. appreciate my girl.. anywae.. gettin lz to blog.. so tt's abt it.. till when im in the mood to blog again.. tartarz~~

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2006-09-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

im finally back from Hong Kong! did anyone miss me at all? but i sure did miss everyone.. n i miss my home so much!!

the flight home was so scary.. we met with so many air turbulances.. every 15min.. the seat belt sign will be lit.. n the plane wld shake so much due to the air pockets we got into.. i kinda tot abt wad to do if there really was an emergency landing or evacuation.. hmm.. wahaha.. shoppin there was ok.. didnt buy mcuh but i spent all my money.. we were so poor in the hkg airport tt we couldnt afford to eat.. haha.. coz we spent our dinner money eatin shi liu shan!

hkg was pretty good.. n so much has happened within my short trip in hong kong so lets recap them by destination:

disneyland
wasnt comparable to the one in orlando of coz.. but it was ok.. not much rides.. not many characters to take pictures with.. but disneyland being disneyland.. i still enjoyed myself very much.. however.. i tink their parade shld be slightly later in the evening.. 3.30 in the afternoon is simply too hot.. im like totally baked now.. the fireworks display was pretty too.. esp when its behing the sleepin beauty castle.. bought loads of stuff from souveneirs from disneyland for my sister.. omg.. u cannot imagine how much money we spent.. n i dun wanna talk abt it.. ahaha.. but sadly.. no cute guys in disneyland at all.. n their uniform sux.. its quite ugly.. so im quite relieved im not like workin there..wahahha

madam tussad
oooohhhh... i took pictures with so many "pple"... n they dun feel like wax at all.. andy lau was no doubt the most handsome of the lot.. so many pple were like huggin him! haha.. well.. a picture beats a thousand words.. go to http://shersher09.myphotoalbum.com to view the pictures from there...

jewellery fair
it was pretty fun.. very very busy.. sales were like ultra good.. i didnt have time for lunch.. i cant even spend a couple of minutes sittin down.. met a lot of my customers n some suppliers.. i tell u.. the pple at the fair r soooooooooooooooooooo damn good at bargaining.. especially the indians!! but i've met very interestin customers though.. one who wanted to bring me out for lumch.. coz he interrupted mine.. one who told me im so good at cuttin his discounts tt i shld go work in his company.. some who demanded every single free gift.. u really will meet all kinda pple there..

but the most significant part of the fair was my cute rich man's son.. haha.. if u wan to noe if i got his contact.. i do not.. we only chatted like a bit on the last dae since he is in my neighbour booth.. i treated him to oreo.. n i noe his name is derrick.. oh.. n he is a singaporean based in china because of his work.. ttz all i noe abt him.. hahah.. but he looks like a really nice guy.. speaks like one too.. heee.. too bad.. i will oni meet him in the sept fair next yr again.. by then.. for all i noe.. he is already married!! but i dun even noe if he is married now.. maybe he already has 4 kids at home.. wahahha..

smelly tofu
the smelly tofu is really the extreme.. i cant stand the smell at all.. n i have to walk past the stall everydae to go get dinner.. it was tormentin.. i dun understand how any lovin soul can eat it.. i reallie reallie tink it is disgusting.. aircons were drippin water everywhere.. u feel like its raining.. haha..

ok.. nuthin more to write.. everything has slipped my mind ready.. the pictures shld be self explanatory.. go take a look at them..

p.s. sy im back.. u can email me ready.. hehe..

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2006-09-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

this is wad the devilz (cindy, jieqi n eliza) wrote:

21 Reasons Why We Love You

1. because you are you are you are YOU
2. we love that you'd help anyone that asked you for help
3. tou know how to be a friend to people... and a good one at that
4. you truly care about the people in your life
5. because you're a devil.. our devil
6. because you are rall and lanky and fair.. and you're afraid of the sun!!
7. we love how we know you'll always be there when we need you to be
8. for being the one of the sweetest person that we know (of cos the other 3 are us =P)
9. we love the way you'll never give up on us
10. we love your thoughtfulness..
11. .. and your sincerity..
12. .. amd also because you're nuts!!
13. how you are always 100% honest no matter what
14. how you always stand up for what you believe in
15. your zaniness
16. the way you care for your family
17. when you listen, we know you're really listening and not just waiting for your turn to talk
18. because you're amazing, dazzling, and extra nice
19. we love your creativity, imagination and spontaneity..
20. because you are the stick-woman.. muah haha...=)
21. every little single detail about you that makes you who you are and the fact that you are the best-est-est-est-est-est-est-est-est-est-est friend in the world...

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH.. (although i bet you 3 lifted some of the points from sumwhere.. n im not quite sure if im creative.. but i still love it!! muackz!!)

p.s. anywae deborah though we dun have the same fashion tastes anymore (coz ur dress sense is becomin wierd..*oopz*).. im sure we are still telepathic.. some things will never change.. I STILL LOVE U!!

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2006-09-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

its official.. im 21 already.. date me out for a R21 movie.. wahhaha.. pple like deborah still have a looooong wae to go.. but it shows u r still young isnt it?

anywae.. photos for the 2nd have been uploaded to http://shersher09.myphotoalbum.com . please let me know which photos u want n i can send them to u online..

i wanted to blog very much over the past few daes but have been to lz to do so.. but here goes wad i can remember from the past few daes:

6th Sept (the actual dae)

didnt wake up in time for my xing fu macdonalds big breakfast.. but went to jack's place for lunch.. lunch was ok.. but jerome was ultra notty as usual.. i will sit on him soon as i cant stand him much longer.. such a spoilt brat.. unlike the grown up me.. hahhaa... den went car shoppin with mummy.. so i guess its quite decided we get the avante.. but i dunno la.. its not up to me since im not the one payin.. hahah..

was supposed to meet deb.. but due to the car shoppini cldn't go anywhere.. so sad.. didnt celebrate the actual dae with her this yr! i met her for tea at bugis last yr..

so after slackin at home for a while.. brother brought me out handphone shoppin at toa payoh central.. after much consideration.. i bought the sony ericsson w810i n he bought the n80.. thank you brother!! but i have a new number now.. coz im gonna terminate my m1 sub line.. n pay for my own new line (the act of independence..).. if u havent gotten my new number.. u still can msg me on my old line.. its not terminated yet..

after spending money at the handphone shop.. sy came to meet me at coconut for drinks.. the only fren i saw for the dae.. hahha.. but its been like a looooong time since only the both of us sat in there.. *oopz*...

5th Sept..

treated my sisters n brother to ktv.. to countdown for my actual 21st!

3rd Sept..

went to send laura off at the airport.. i reallie tried very very hard to hold back the tears.. im so gonna miss her man.. i saw her cryin n i reallie m bad at controllin my weak tear ducts.. but i didnt cry in the end.. the tears remained in my eyes.. (fyi, jean also almost cried.. so its not oni me!)..

went shopping after tt and bought some new clothes.. hehehe.. den the celebrations continued.. my sisters n i went to watch moster house.. n den we played monopoly n scrabble till very late after we reached home.. so guess who was the winner? me!! i was the richest person at the end.. both cash rich n asset rich.. haha.. winner!! winner!!

2nd Sept..

the long awaited dae has finally arrived.. it was the dae of my 21st bdae celebration.. spend the whole morning buying fruits for the fondue.. cuttin the fruits.. poking them into satay sticks (this is just so that u knew i put in alot alot of effort!).. stickin balloons on the ceiling.. blah blah blah..

before long.. guests started streamin in.. started slow at first as they were not many pple.. but as more pple started comin.. i just felt like i had to split myself into many many smaller pieces to go everywhere!! while im tryin to take a picture here.. there will be pple at the door there waitin for me.. i was juz super bzzzzzzzzzzz... i didnt eat the whole nite.. god.. i wasnt even hungry as i was too bz..

it was such a whirlwind nite.. now i noe how everyone feels as they celebrate their 21st.. i must sae they went thru A LOT!! haha.. so did i!

sadly.. my chocolate findue fell when i was abt to cut my cake n it splattered all over me n some of my prezzies.. i wonder who was the freak tt banged the table.. hahah.. dun let me catch u!! didnt get sabooed as much as i expected due to the fondue (maybe thanks to it as well..) they juz sprayed some party thing on me.. jean caught a video of tt.. shall put it up if i feel like it.. haha.. i look uber spastic...

after which.. it was open present time.. i received 2 presents i made me so touched tt i almost cried.. first.. it was deb's book for me.. with all the pictures from like a thousand yrs back.. n the devilz presents.. they wrote me a list of 21 points they liked abt me.. reallie very gan dong!

i liked all my other presents too!! thank you everyone:

1. thank you for the crumpler bag to bring to hkg..
2. thank you for my identity belt..
3. thank you for the pink bag ( im usin it already)
4. thank you for the new wallet (how did u noe i needed a wallet?.. im usin it now too!)
5. thank you for the diamonds (my very first pair!)
6. thank you for my freedom key (im wearin it everydae now)
7. thank you for the huge key
8. thank you doggie lamp.. the bag.. the necklace (w e price tag) n the cutey name thingy..
9. thank you for the 21 presents ( i love the list..)
10. thank you for the book n the accessories
11. thank you for the handmade chain tt u dropped in my letterbox
12. thank you for the pretty ring n earrings from michael negrin
13. thank you for the heart earrings
14. thank you for all the ang baos
15. thank you for everything that i may have missed out due to my small brain capacity
16. thank you for my new w810i (sy.. its not ugly..)
17. thank you for the catering
18. thank you everyone for your presence at my party..

just a BIG HUGE thank you for everyone for everything!!

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2006-09-03T02:05:00.000+08:00

b4 i post the detail.. i just want to tell everyone a big thank you! i love u all.. u all created a blastin bdae party for me!

will bog after i wake up tmr..

ONCE AGAIN.. THANK YOU PEEPZ!!

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2006-08-23T15:52:00.000+08:00

hey peepz.. i drew this map for those of u who hasnt been to my house.. i hope it helps.. if not.. please tag me to let me know what other directions u need and i will find out for u..

from kovan mrt.. take exit that leads to simon road... if u r comin up from the train station.. its the side with 2 escalators..

anything else.. please leave a tag or sms me k.. thank you! seeya all next saturday!

Thank you Siuyuin!

2006-08-12T01:26:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU SIUYUIN!!

i tink its one of the rare times i ever mention ur full name on my blog.. u r usually referred to as sy.. but todae u did me a great favour by suggestin i chage my blogskin n did everything (includin forcing me to chose this skin) for me.. THANK YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR!!

n i do not tink eski is the cutest dog on earth.. but anywe.. did u noe cute = ugly but adorable?? so if u tink she is cute den ok lor.. Happie is still my number one beloved dog!! thanks for the 2 shirts anywae.. she looks cute in them!!

fireworks todae are so pretty.. gonna see them again tmr.. but muz go find place to sit at 4pm while the display of firework only start at 9pm.. 5 freakin hours.. wad can i do??

oh yes.. not tt i wanna nag.. but i tink singaporeans are soooooooo inconsiderate.. firstly.. they take up ur seat without askin.. n scream at u rudely when u tell them its taken.. i wasnt there.. if not i wld have suaned tt ah lian that spoke like tt.. if u cant understant the meanin of "its taken" maybe u can go back to school instead of galivanting ard all dae.. pple are alreadie discriminatin our spoken english.. so pls do not disgrace urself anymore..

another inconsiderate act.. y muz u pple stand up when we can all sit in comfort n enjoy the fireworks display? some pple stood up at 8.59pm n they got booed by everyone else.. dun they feel the least bit embarrassed?.. there was this couple tt was kanna booed for very long.. n they finally got the hint.. see... singaporeans are just all so kiasu.. coz they sit down n watch will probably miss out seeing tt small sparkle tt is fallin to the ground.. haiz.. y r singaporeans nv gracious.. 4 million smiles?? 4 million inconsiderate freaks i tink..

last inconsiderate act of the dae.. pple just littered... the nice clean esplanade was spotted with bits of tissues.. food wrappers.. n newspapers.. it was like a street in a 3rd world country.. y cant they clear up!! its as easy as pickin up ur own trash.. i say it again... YOUR OWN TRASH!! n i supposed to clear it for u??

maybe the govt shld reconsider abt having the fireworks festival as this is how their citizens repay your efforts.. by litterin n jammin up the expressway... funny isnt it.. pple complain tt the govt doesnt do anything for them.. but when they do.. this is the way u repay them.. haiz.. human nature.. let the pple from the imf see this n im quite sure many pple will start losin their jobs as i highly doubt any more high profile events will be held in this ungracious society..

think abt it peepz.. everyone juz has a little part to play..

p.s. im tinkin if i further my studies, i will major in gemmology.. sounds good??

2006-08-12T01:17:00.000+08:00

Cutest dog on earth ! Happy Bday Eski !

2006-08-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

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2006-08-10T21:38:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

to celebrate national day, today's post shall be in red! anywae.. y do sch kids get todae off as well?? nooooooo fair.. i wan off too.. a looong weekend.. oh man.. that will be very nice dun u tink? went out to watch the fireworks last nite.. it was spectecular.. so pretty i tell u.. we had a good spot near the indoor stadium.. so we brought jerome n meimei to picnic im sure they had fun.. coz i did!!

tinkin of goin to catch the fireworks display on fridae n saturdae.. maybe i shld huh.. i tink i will.. too much money to give it a miss.. hehe.. im quite practical..

no concrete plans for the weekend yet, but hopefully the meetin of me.. aud.. deb n oli will pull thru.. although i highly suspect one of them will be bz.. just not me.. im the super free one.. im an OL remember??

just completed readin a set of comic book its called "hua yang shao nian shao nu" its a super long ago comic i tink.. but coz its a show tt ella is actin in now, so i went to borrow the comic to read la.. n i cried.. how useless rite.. oh well.. im a crybaby.. so wad? im in love with readin comic books now.. i've also started reading ouran high school club.. this one is super funny.. but there's like a twist in the storyline kind.. so not borin at all.. i've also watched the ova (original video animation) very cute.. im just in love with comics coz all the guys are so shuai!!

talkin abt shuai ge.. i just met my dream husband last nite.. of coz dr shen is still in number one position.. but the GOH commandos from NDP r so smart.. i swear.. if last nite one of them asked me to marry him, i wld have said yes.. they simply looked fantabulous in their uniform.. but sy says brandon is from commando too.. but he doesnt look like it.. *oopz* forget i said tt.. but ya.. i've decided i like the commandos.. heee

rite now im crackin my brains n plannin for my 21st.. who to invite.. who i cant invite coz they have no company.. wad do i need.. wad to prepare.. these things r killin me.. i have no idea wad i need.. the biggest headache is the guestlist anywae.. but i tink im almost done with tt.. has anyone not replied me n i forgot to msg u again? those who rsvped better turn up.. i bite!! so now im lackin my fondue.. my polaroid camera (laura or hk do u all have it?).. decor.. guest book / guest board.. CAKE.. food? wad cake shld i order.. another BIG problem for me..

the catering menu is out n i cant be bothered to change anymore.. i tink the menu is already good enuff.. if not den i let my guests eat me lor (ttz if u all can find anything on me to eat).. oh yes.. i need to buy the draught heinkeen for my sister.. but i dun tink any of my guest drink leh.. do u all? hmm.. drink as in consume alcohol not drink water la..

dun wanna tink to much abt tt le la.. tink of some happy stuff.. i've kinda received my first present ready.. my da jie bought me my 21st bdae key.. i like it.. coz its not the conventional girly kind.. its a bit kawaii kind!! no diamonds like i wanted it to be though.. but still at least i noe it is quite ex (coz i was there when she bought it).. oh yes everyone.. stop askin me wad i wan.. surprise me ok!! i love surprises!!

been quite bz lately.. dun tink i have much free time these couple of weeks firstly becoz of the party.. n den also due to my hkg trip in mid september.. its work.. so i tink i gotta prepare price list n stuff.. im sure its not easy.. u really tink my company will send me there for one week to holidae?? u wait!! but im hopin i get to go disneyland.. but up till now its not confirmed if i get to extend my stay.. if not... den i shall go again march next yr.. n by then elaine will be there.. so i probably can meet her to go say hi to mickey mouse!

oh yes.. a little something for sy.. i've tot of sumthin to give u on ur bdae.. i hope u will be surprised!! u better be.. if not i bite u n i shave eski botak!! wahhaahha

k den.. long enuff... time to sleep.. nitezzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

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2006-08-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-24T11:04:00.000+08:00

i must have read this a couple of times already.. but everytime i read it again.. it makes me feel a bit sad.. n regret some stuff i did in life.. i tink we shld all start reflectin.. happy reading..

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear acrossthe country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life,Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stophim.Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. Thefuneral is Wednesday."Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days."Jack, did you hear me?""Oh sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It¡Çs been so long since I thought of him.I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said. "Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you weredoing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of thefence' as he put it," Mom told him."I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said. "You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sureyou had a man's influence in your life," she said."He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said. "I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me thingshe thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral," Jack said.As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no childrenof his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to seethe old house next door one more time. Standing in the doorway, Jack pausedfor a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leapthrough space and time. The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture....Jack stoppedsuddenly."What's wrong, Jack?" his Mom asked."The box is gone," he said."What box?" Mom asked. "There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I musthave asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell me wasthe thing I value most," Jack said. It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someonefrom the Belser family had taken it."Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I better getsome sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom."

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from workone day¡¤ Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. "Signature required on apackage. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days," the note read.Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old andlooked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting wasdifficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. "Mr. Harold Belser" it read.Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There insidewas the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read the noteinside. "Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life."A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling hiseyes,! Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautifulgold pocket watch. Running his fingers slowly over the finely etchedcasing, he unlatched the cover.Inside he found these words engraved: "Jack, Thanks for your time! - HaroldBelser.""The thing he valued most...was...my time." Jack held the watch for a few minutes then called his office and clearedhis appointments for the next two days. "Why?" Janet, his assistant asked."I need some time to spend with my son," he said. "Oh, by the way, Janet...thanks for your time!""Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the momentsthat take our breath away,"

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you somuch that they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you insome way.
3. A smile from you can bring happiness toanyone, even if they don't like you.
4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you beforethey go to sleep.
5. You mean the world to someone.
6. If not for you, someone may not be living.
7. You are special and unique.
8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if youtrust God to do what's best, and wait on His time,sooner or later, you willget it or something better.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever,something good can still come from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its backon you, take a look; you most likely turned yourback on the world.
11. Someone that you don't even know exists,loves you.
12. Always remember the compliments youreceived. Forget about the rude remarks.
13. Always tell someone how you feel about them;you will feel much better when they know and you'llboth be happy.
14. If you have a great friend, take the time tolet them know that they are great.

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2006-07-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

so b4 my blog is pronouced dead again.. i shall write sumthing..

attended olivia's 21st bdae party on saturdae.. its been a loooooooooooooooooong time since we last her.. n we finally meet her bf.. we were wondering its still the same one.. n yes.. its the np guy.. den audrey started callin him "jie-fu".. n bcoz of tt we got all the good food.. heehee.. so me n aud bought this belt with the word "oli" on it n a skirt to go with the belt.. was really nice.. o hope she liked it.. n deb bought her this abercrombie jacket.. n so she has one set of new clothes for sch! both blink blink one.. so heeeeeer..

she catered for the bbq n it seems like she.. more like her mother.. spent quite a lot.. n she bought this chocolate fondue thingy for 15 buckz.. n it was definitely NOT worth her money.. tt thing probably costs 5 dollars maximum.. haha.. lookin forward to have my own fondue at my party too!! but olivia had a clever strategy.. she didnt cut her cake till quite late.. coz once she cuts her cake her guests will start to leave.. haha.. smart move.. shld follow ah..

its been a long time since aud.. deb n me sat down to talk.. (oli was bz la.. obviously.. so she didnt join us).. we spoke abt relationships..n u both must remember to remind me if THAT happens k.. i wan to know i keep my stand..i noe pple change subconsciously.. but i dun wan to change.. u both better remember on wad we agreed hor.. well.. n like deb said.. pple dun reallie have to survive with like a bf or a husband (though i noe i very much want to get married).. aud mentioned tt everyone needs love.. but love comes from so many other sources besides a partner.. say family.. n frenz.. so i realised tt i wont die even if i remain single.. not being negative.. just being truthful..

i just love the feel of sittin around n talkin.. no matter how long it has been since we last got together.. i believe some things juz nv change.. we grow up.. u all grow pretty.. grow skinny.. but it still feels like the ij days.. in the art room.. bullyin mr tan the balding art teacher.. repeatedly mopin over our art pieces.. i still love u all as much.. MUACKZ..

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2006-07-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

please address me as Sherlyn gu-gu from now on.. hehe.. my ke ai de niece natalie is born on 1st july 2006.. went to mount alvernia to visit her todae.. she is like super duper cute!! she opens her eyes.. n her eyes are like big la.. accordin to everyone.. she looks like my cousin.. erm.. but i really cant tell.. babies all look the same!! my dear frenz.. pls get married quickly n let me be a godma n have cutey babies to play with!!

n sy.. i noe i wan to get married young.. but can u pls stop match making me with every available guy.. first was ur 193 bf (of coz tt was b4 u were together with him).. n den brandon.. n den u tried to show me ur 1.82m fren called yan zhao or sumthing.. n den now changli.. n after ur club momo trip this unknown guy who will break up with his wild gf after 4 months.. n for GOD's sake.. me n changli are just like uber good frenz.. we do not have fu qi lian... plus.. he is attached n the gf damn pretty la.. n u seem to not notice tt he is like shorter den me?? R U BLIND OR WAD?

anywae.. i watched like 4 movies.. ok maybe 3 1/2 movies last nite alone.. went to rent some movies from music junction.. (its quite cheap u noe.. 5 movies for 15 bucks..) so i watched sky high (i like it!).. ice princess (not too bad.. but the dics was scratched so it skipped a bit).. nanny mcphee (simon was cute!) n 1/2 of pink panther.. (though entertainin.. there was no plot.. dumb show).. so i tink i slept at abt 5 am.. hahah.. but in between the movies.. i received horrible news.. BRAZIL LOST! i cant believe it.. how can they like lose la.. oh man.. i was happy tt portugal won (okie.. dun box me..).. but france's winnin was quite unexpected.. oh man.. wad happened to the coffee beans pple!! haiz.. i tink germany will win the world cup eventually..GO GERMANY!!

anywae.. sy n tkm.. pls stop throwin me wierd qns as to whether or not he is flirtatious.. the next time i get such a qn.. i make sure u will not like the replies i give (im evil by nature)!! u both r super wu liao!! n u all really gave me a shock last nite.. pls la u two.. its not even a month yet.. GET A GRIP!

ok.. ttz it.. bedtime now.. n my distributors are comin to the office tmr..cant be late.. n its a dress up dae too! which dress shld i wear.. hmmm.... nitezzzzzzzzzz peepz........

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2006-06-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

first time im blogging using my new pc!! but its really hard to type with long fingernails.. i feel like my fingers are not exactly touchin the key board.. hmm.. time to snip them off..

just came back from a wedding dinner tt i very reluctantly went to.. it was at goodwood park hotel.. sounds nice rite.. but the food wasnt really good.. not the standard one would expect from there.. saw a cute waiter tt looks like a korea actor.. too bad he wasnt srving our table.. haha.. he is only cute coz his specs looks tt the one a korean actor wore.. hahhaha..

the poor waiter serving our table keep gettin teased by the aunties.. he is this young punk.. he was like tryin to split the lobster cold dish onto our plates one by one but he dropped this fried ball thingy n everyone laffed at him.. he was like so paiseh la.. n they told him to "just leave it la" n from then.. every dish he brought he didnt have to serve.. all the aunties kept teasin him can.. super funny.. till the end i wld think he got quite irritated.. hee.. just so tt u noe.. im not included in the aunties k..

the weddin dinner was really very uneventful.. no games.. nothin personal at all.. oni a short ppt presentation the bride did.. wasnt tt fantastic.. im quite sure i wld have done better.. but after i knew wad she works as.. i got a shock.. she is like a creative director can.. n her kind of ppt is like.. WOW.. hmm... the wedding couple didnt radiate the happiness tt newly weds usually do.. seems to me like they were super detached from the whole event.. from wad i knew.. the bride's mum planned everything for her.. n the only thing the bride was worried abt is not being able to pay for the dinner.. n i really could tell how interested she was durin the dinner man.. plus.. she didnt look really fantastic.. n the groom's jacket looks too big!!

personally, i will nv wan to attend a weddin like tt.. n this is really the first time i've attended one like tt.. n while i was stonin throughout the dinner (besides msging sy in between dishes).. i was imaginin my frenz gettin married.. how they will be sabooed.. how fun it will be.. n maybe i will even get to host their weddin? or at least i can be recep or sumthing rite.. n maybe if i ever get married im sure my dad's frenz will be yum-senging the whole time.. but theirs was really a quiet affair i wld say.. no fun.. no excitment.. n most imptly.. i didnt feel their joy..

well well.. if i ever ever have a chance to get married.. i do hope its not like tt.. but i guess i've enuff noisy frenz to make it a super high dinner.. i will be one of their noisy frenz too!!

so till any of my friend's first weddin.. i can continue dreamin of the perfect weddin dinner!!

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2006-06-09T16:30:00.000+08:00

i always believed tt things happen for a reason.. but i feel so guilty when "I" am the reason. Somethings are so much outside our span of control. What i tot was good may not apparently seem so.. did i help or did i harm? Not like I can still do anything abt wad has happened.. I jus hope everyone’s ok…

sometimes I wish I will nv ever grow up.. no matter how naïve I may seem on the outside.. I cant deny myself of the fact tt I’ve grown up n I’ve learnt soooo much from so many pple.. seen so much from life..i’ve long ago learnt tt PPLE EVENTUALLY GROW UP (no matter how hard they try not to).. I always seem to think too much.. protect myself so much.. hold too many burdens.. but many a times.. how important are these things tt I think abt? sumtimes I feel like they’re so insignificant tt I shldnt even be thinking abt them.. tell me im sensitive.. observant.. wadever.. im just too affected by my emotions.. when someone starts to think too much.. these stuff becomes their burdens.. some of the thing I hold upon myself doesn’t even concern me!.. putting too much emotions n ur heart into doin things are no good.. n more often den not.. these r exactly the kind of pple tt nv succeed in life.. its not tt im looking at a great bright future ahead of me.. its just tt sometimes I think I will just grow old n mock at myself for not achieving anything at all in life.. n I eventually will have to die with tt truth..

maybe virgos are too critical of themselves to think tt they are nv doin anything rite.. maybe they are negative by nature.. maybe its just me thinking too much YET AGAIN.. wadever it is.. I just wan to stay happy like forever n ever.. tt’s all I wan in life (how ambitious rite..)

simple as that.. I dun ever think I will achieve it.. coz.. sumtimes I think too much..

(this entry is like pple seeing another me.. im not always happy as I seem.. I just want to make everyone happy.. but its kinda difficult.. I juz hope tt im not doing anyone wrong.. haiz..)

anywae.. with this post.. i wan to condemn the reckless driver who banged down Prince, my cousin's jack russell..it was a hit n run.. how cruel can u get? i hope whoever u r.. u wont get over it n feel guilty all ur life.. with this.. i shall stop writin.. in memory of Prince.. =(

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2006-05-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

Well n Yes I Hv been tagged!! Audrey.. im only this for you!!

~!INSTRUCTIONS:
a. The tagged victims have to come up with eight different points about his/her perfect lover.
b. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover. (dis is IMPORTANT!)
c. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment in their blog.
d. If you are tagged the second time, there's no need to do this AGAIN.
e. Lastly and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

Answers:

a. - loves me
- i love
- fillial
- tall [i classify tall as 1.78m n above]
- chinese [im not racist.. but i wan a chinese to be my other half]
- stable [which means responsible with good income =) ]
- shuai [i mean.. come on.. dun say u dun mind. i dun believe u!!]
- honest [so that he stays loyal to me =P]

b. i love shuai ges only..

c. i tink pple will kill me if i tag them.. so i save myself the trouble.. hehe.. n like i said.. i did this coz audrey tagged.. so ya.. if anyone wants to do it den go ahead la.. =)

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2006-05-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

so much has happened.. n so much i've learnt.. life really isnt a bed of roses whichever way i see it.. how can i be so lucky yet whine everydae abt wad i dun have.. pple always dun appreciate wad they have.. n i must say im one of those who are nv contented..

wad more can i ask for? i have a family who loves me more than anything else.. i have good frenz tt i noe will not desert me for anything n treasure me soo much.. i have a job tt i enjoy n pays well.. wad more do i really need? qns tt only i can answer.. but at this moment in time, asking for anything more than wad i already have seem so selfish.. some other pple shld get a share of happiness too.. i hate to see u both in tears.. no matter how u smile.. i noe the hurt is there.. nuthin much i can do to help.. but i hope being around u makes u feel better..

the outing on saturday to celebrate tkm's birthday is really memorable.. not just for me.. but for all who turned up including shuwen.. siuyuin.. kok meng himself n elaine who joined us later.. i bet non of u have ever seen a birthday celebration endin up at ttsh a & e? well.. but we did.. sy tt stupid ger.. had low blood pressure n fainted after 2 sips of cheap vodka.. sent her to the 24hr clinic who sent her to hospital in an ambulance.. n so the story starts with the 6 excrutiationg hours outside the hospital in the carpark inside tkm's car with 2 malteses (yuckz.. i hate maltese!!)

sidetrack a bit.. i really really learn how much shuwen n tkm cares.. maybe not for me la.. but they really do care.. n im so so so so so so glad i have them as my frenz.. tkm.. im sorry for always bullying u.. i will try to be nice in future.. I PROMISE! (ttz i u dun bully me also..) i hope u both noe i really appreciated wad u all did on saturday nite..

ok.. back to the hospital thingy.. i was so worried for sy.. n i cried twice.. okok.. i noe im useless.. but it's kinda like my fault she got so ill.. i was the one who asked her out n stuff.. if i didnt ask her.. den she will be home.. n nuthing would have happened.. imagine how traumatised i was.. but all is fine now.. she's up n jumpin.. but her legs hurt from dunno wad.. so.. ya.. she overall a weakling.. not strong like me =)

a lot of things were mentioned after tt about tt somebody.. sy n elaine.. gimme some space la.. u both r nutz.. there is really nuthin.. u noe nothing as in N-O-T-H-I-N-G?? dun have to mention the issue every other statement u both make.. haha...

n sy.. i told u brandon is not cute le.. see elaine says so too.. but even so..how can u go n tell him i specifically said he is not cute!! damn throw face lor.. wad's worst.. he works in the area can.. wad if i run into him sumwhere? july is still quite long awae lor.. when i see him den i bury a hole n hide rite? anywae.. i hope u get a job u like soon.. wherever u go.. we will zhi chi ni!!

n elaine.. thank u so much for tellin me tt i actually achieved something the past one yr since i left np.. coz for me.. i felt like i just wasted time doin nuthin.. thanks to u.. i felt like i was appreciated in scarlet n havent wasted my 9 months there.. n also tt i made the rite choice to stay in italtrade instead of acceptin kenneth's offer to return to h2h coz i am more valued where i m now.. i bet u all had no ideas how ur simple words can affect me.. but ya.. im easily swayed.. haha.. but arigato!

time of the month soon so pmsing now.. i feel like shoppin soooo much.. im awaitin my pay n i hope to spend some boostin singapore's economy.. pms is bad coz i get mood swings.. todae is probably the worst.. i was ok b4 lunch.. but the moment i stepped out of the office.. my mood fell.. even sy could tell i was unusual.. im so sorry if i spoilt ur lunch ger.. just not in the mood todae.. but feel much better now after i had crab for dinner.. i feel like a pregnant woman cravin for food! m i really pregnant? who's kid?? erm.. lemme decide first.. will reveal soon.. hahha..

to all of u out there tt feel that life is nv good enuff.. tt god is nv fair.. pls think again.. u r probaby already very fortunate.. at least.. i feel tt way now.. take care everyone!

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2006-05-13T13:56:00.001+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!! wishin all mummies out there a wonderful day! may ur children all be fillial.. like me!! =) im like the last good daughter on earth.. haha.. i even bought flowers for all the mummies at work.. though there were oni 3 of them.. =P

come to think of it.. this is the last long weekend we have till dunno when.. no more public holidays till national day.. ttz a really looooooong time.. sobz... so i decided to spend it wisely..

went to hk's house for a sleepover on thurs again.. headed to the ktv at safra toa payoh.. n we had this huge room to ourselves coz they were no other rooms.. n i had to embarrass myself.. ohh.. dun ask me wad happen.. i dun wan to talk abt it.. haiz.. n elaine counldnt make it coz she was tooo tired.. as we needed like 4 pple min to sing thru-out the whole nite.. we were lookin for pple to join us.. but nope.. no one came in the end.. i asked kok meng coz his the oni person i noe stayin in tp besides all the ij gers.. n jean sprained her leg n couldnt come.. but he sure nv come de la.. coz he alwiz tell us he nv sing ktv de.. buuuuuuut... he has a new doggie!! n its a maltese.. sy's kind of dog.. bleah.. not cute.. chihuahuas r the best!! niak niak niak.. he should have gotten a chihuahua like me n shuwen.. join the chihuahua club wad.. now he is in sy's league.. stupid maltese owners.. hahaha.. the sleepover was quite uneventful.. but i still had a good time.. its juz the very superb feelin of spendin time with frenz.. n sy as usual k.o. first.. haha.. n we woke up late the next mornin.. hk was suppose to reach smu at 10.. n we woke up at ten.. haha.. like a bit late rite.. but too bad lor.. wad can we do.. heee..

my sisters n brother wanted to watch poseidon at omni-max theatre yesterdae.. we couldnt book the tickets online.. called sistic n they told me to call science centre.. n when i called science centre.. they told me i couldnt book!! so we had to go down n buy tickets.. they told me they still had abt 85 tickets for both time slots of the show.. so we rushed down.. n less than a 1/2 drive later.. we arrived at the ulu pandan omni-max theatre to find the tickets sold out!! omg.. we stay like at kovan can.. not say near jurong lor.. all the way n no tickets.. n my poor brother was like super disappointed coz he really wanted to watch it there.. so no choice lor.. had to leave wad.. (i wld have loved to walk ard science ctr.. but i was so sure they wld clobber me if i said tt..) so we went to imm to walk walk.. went to our favorite store - DAISO.. i bought a basket to bring to the office to store my food n a new cushion for happie.. n she loves it!! my cutey dog.. okie.. back to the movie.. so we went to imm to book tickets for gv at the axs machine.. we finally decide to watch it at gv grand.. i like the cinema man.. but its a place u cant go if u dun drive.. no bus nor mrt.. how to go.. im not like so rich to keep takin cab lor..
BUT the show was VERY VERY VERY NICE!!

i love the movie.. 1 million times better than titanic (which sucked)!! n Josh Lucas is officially my fave male actor at the moment.. he's jus so charmin.. both in poseidon n sweet home alabama.. i love him!! in poseidon.. he is like so smart.. very very impressive.. go watch it peepz.. im now lookin forward to da vinci code..maybe its time for me to book the tickets.. anyone wants to watch it? im so dyin to watch it after readin the story book.. though i cant remember wads the story abt.. my dory fish memory jus workz this way.. nuthin i can do... hmm...

da vinci cide.. da vinci code.. da vinci code.. till then.. tc..

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2006-05-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

jenny subscribed to this radio station tt sends her very meaningful emails with stories.. im gonna post a couple of those i read lately n found very meaning.. this first story of genghis khan n his hawk is for all to see.. i hope u can see the truth in it n relate to it..

STORIES - Genghis Khan and His Hawk
Anger is one of the most fundamental aspects of human nature. We were all born with an inclination towards it and that's why curbing anger is such a challenge. It's like trying to suppress a part of us that seems to surface involuntarily.
But great is the need to restrain ourselves from doing things out of anger, these can have very serious consequences. Take the story of Genghis Khan and his hawk, for example.
One morning, Genghis Khan, the great king and warrior, rode out into the woods for a day's sport. On his wrist sat his favourite hawk, for in those days hawks were trained to hunt.
The day had been warm, and the king was very thirsty. His pet hawk left his wrist and flew away. It would be sure to find its way home. The king was riding slowly along, when to his joy, he saw some water trickling down over the edge of a rock. He knew that there was a spring farther up.
The king took a little silver cup from his hunting bag and held it so as to catch the slowly falling drops. It took a long time to fill the cup; and the king was so thirsty that he could hardly wait. At last it was nearly full. He put the cup to his lips, and was about to drink when suddenly, the cup was knocked from his hands.
The king looked up to see who had done this thing. It was his pet hawk.
The king picked up the cup, and again held it to catch the trickling drops. When the cup was half full, he lifted it toward his mouth. But before it had touched his lips, the hawk swooped down again, and knocked it from his hands.
Now this happened a few times. The king was so overcome by anger that when the bird swooped down again, he struck it with his sword. The hawk fell to the ground and lay dying at its master's feet.
"That is what you get for your pains," said Genghis Khan.
But when he looked for his cup, he found that it had fallen between two rocks, where he could not reach it.
"At any rate, I will have a drink from that spring," he said to himself.
With that he began to climb the steep bank to the place from which the water trickled. When he reached the pool, he noticed something lying in the pool, almost filling it. It was a huge, dead snake of the most poisonous kind.
The king stopped. He forgot his thirst.
"The hawk saved my life!" he cried, "and how did I repay him? He was my best friend, and I have killed him."
Genghis Khan learnt a sad lesson that day - and that was to never do anything in anger.

this next story talks about a phase evryone goes thru.. but i want to dedicate this story to her.. though its not written by me.. its posted on my blog by myself.. hehe.. wadever.. here goes..

Yes or No?
We're always making choices. How we will use our time, how we're going to get to our destination, what we're going to have for lunch, what colours should be used for our logo, what proposal should be dumped and which one should be taken up. Every step that we take presents us with an option of "Yes" or "No".
All these decisions, or in the case of some of us, in-decision, affects our happiness. How consciously do we make our choices? What happens when we can't make a definite "Yes" or "No" is that we become stuck in the wilderness of "Maybe" land. When we spend too much time in this place, we allow others to decide how our lives should be led. Here we have no hope for fulfillment because when things go well, we can't take the credit. And when things go awry, we blame ourselves for trusting the judgement of another.
Imagine that your partner or friend prefers to watch a particular movie and you'd really like to see another but you don't say anything. You give your partner or friend a weak "maybe", "it doesn't matter" or a reluctant "oh ok?" Later, you feel resentful and angry because this always seems to happen and you "never get to see the movie that you want to see."
Sometimes we justify this by believing that we don't assert ourselves because we are easy-going or generous. If this is the case, then why do we subsequently feel lousy and on the losing end?
Now, asserting yourself doesn't mean being demanding or unreasonable. By all means, empower yourself by expressing your feelings clearly, but be ready to negotiate or occasionally give in or come to a compromise. The important thing is simply to make your feelings known. Hiding behind a mask of indifference creates a lot of inner tension which may explode in the future.
It's very important to empower yourself to make conscious choices to create the relationships and life that you want. A lot of people feel anger and resentment toward others but what they're actually feeling is resentment towards themselves for not having the courage to go for what they really want.
Whenever you're faced with a decision, take the time to go within yourself and ask yourself what you really want. Is it true that it doesn't matter? Is it something you can take lightly? Or something you feel strongly about? When you evaluate your options consciously and express your feelings clearly, you'll feel more empowered, and as a result, move confidently toward creating the kind of relationships and life that you want.

i hoped everyone enjoyed both stories.. for me.. i found them both very meaningful.. n i hope u did too.. tartarzzzzzzz...

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2006-05-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

it feels so good to have such good frenz tt u can just sit n tok till like there'e no tmr.. i didnt miss my sleep when im with the babez ( i was so tempted to give the drinks a miss coz my bed time is at 10pm.. but im afraid to be frenless if i dun turn up!! =( noone will drink with me if i dun drink with them when they're troubled rite..)

but i wan u all to noe tt i love u all to the bitz.. rougue was pretty nice.. n the ice cream was huge.. one diner jumped when he saw how biiiiiiiig the ice cream was.. hahah.. was really a funny sight..

anywae.. elaine.. pls dun tink too much..u r not gonna fail.. trust me.. i've got good instincts.. i guessed sy's interview results too!! everything will work out juz fine.. n sy.. muz jiayou.. like.. den muz pro-active abit la.. n i dun mind knowin a fren if u didnt push him so hard.. hahah.. hard sell sia..

i tink italtrade is gonna gimme 1600 after confirmation.. hmm.. makin my decision more dificult.. arghz..

watever.. itz bath time n bedtime.. nitez nitez.. lookin forward to saturdae!!

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2006-05-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

im headhunted!! ya rite.. haha.. kenneth.. (if u didnt noe.. he is my ex boss from heart to heart) offered me a job.. to work in his office.. thing started when deb called him to ask if he needed temp.. den ken agreed to let deb work in the office durin her hols.. den he called me too.. he started askin if i had a job n blah blah blah.. n he actuallie noez italtrade.. the oni one who noez the company so far.. haha.. oh ya n i told him im workin n stuff la.. den he asked y i didnt join his company.. n i obviously gave funny funny excuses.. n i told him now i m drawin a comfortable pay with excellent hours.. (its true anywae..) conversation ended with him askin me to join heart to heart when i wan to leave italtrade...
3 minutes later.. i received his sms to ask me how much im paid.. n so i told him.. 1400 b4 confirmation.. 1600 ( not exactly true.. i highly suspect tt they will oni gimme 1500) after they confirm me.. five day week n 9 to 5.30pm days.. so i jokingly mentioned tt if he can match my pay den i consider joinin his company la.. n he.. he did!! he offered me 1600.. alt sats off.. 10 to 7pm days (1/2 hr more).. n chances to follow him to exhibitions in usa, europe, hk.. etc.. i was SHOCKED!! m i so capable?? i dun really tink so wad.. but its a good offer tt i shld reallie consider properly.. hmm.. office job is real borin.. if i go back to h2h.. i will probably get to run around to the counters n shops.. haiz.. but pple at italtrade r nice to me.. hoooooooooooooooow...
i need some time.. it means its time to go for some drinks ready.. hhaha.. bliss anyone?

2006-05-01T18:11:00.000+08:00

2006-05-01T18:08:00.000+08:00

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2006-04-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

ah.. guess wad?? went to the sia interview todae n flunked at round 2!! haha.. nv expected to get thru round 1 anywae.. so its alreadie a bonus.. my first cabin crew to be fren siuyuin has promised me LV wallets rite?? hehe.. u bettter get in.. i wan my branded stuff.. haha.. not as many pretty gers as the march intake though.. but still got la.. n i saw cheuk ying (4A4) n she so gloated at me for not gettin into round 3.. lets quote her " i expected u to get in one leh.. y u screw up the interview.." thanks man.. i didnt need tt.. really.. no biggie tt i didnt get thru.. but isnt it a bit evil?? well.. but im still innocent.. quiet n reserved.. hahha.. cant hold up against evil..

goin for mani n pedi tmr.. its only 30 bucks becoz they havin 50% discount promo.. the poor manicurist will die la.. her after four o clock appointments are all ours.. me.. siuyuin (cabin crew.. cabin crew.. =p).. audrey n sy's fren steph.. she only has like a small break for dinner.. she's so gonna starve.. poor lynette.. if anyone wans the 50% promo thingy.. she says she will be able to do it on mondae n tuesday if u all r willin to pay tmr.. so if anyone wanz can msg me.. i will be there @ 4.30pm tmr.. den i can check.. hmm.. n while im doin my nailz.. aud is gonna color her hair.. told her itz cancer causin but she doent care.. notty ger.. met her todae to buy mit's prezzie n found out a lot of stuff.. pple really do change.. anywae audrey.. i wish u all the best.. im sure u know what's best for yourself.. dun deny urself from anything u shld have..

months of not seein each other doesnt really matter.. we still talk n crap n GOSSIP.. as much as we r in ij.. i really hope life just stands still.. i dun wanna grow up.. haha..

thurs was jianhua's 21st.. we celebrated for him by goin to marche for dinner n drinks at this alfresco drinkin place called loof.. its reallie quite cool.. next dae should get salma n angel to go chill there.. im sure they will like it.. itz sumthing like breeze though.. n yes.. being the OL (office lady) tt i m now.. i cant help but wan sleep at 10 everydae.. like now.. my eyelids are drooping.. but i wanna watch i not stupid too.. juz bought the dvd.. ok.. back to my bedtime.. i was really tired tt dae.. n i fell of the stool!! how dumb can i get rite.. freak la.. let them all laff at me.. hmph.. but everyone laffed at jianhua the most.. he got a couple of big fat kisses from henry.. im sure it is unforgetten 21st!! haha.. henry is so sportin!! n we bought him a very nice seiko watch.. raine muz have telepathy with jianhua coz jh said tt was exactly wad he wanted!! haha.. frenz out there... READ MY MIND!!

excited bout tmr... pink or dark red?? cute or mature?? need to consider carefully... hmm.. seein new colleague on tuesday.. hope she's nice (like me!!).. if not.. my life in italtrade is screwed.. hahha.. send me some love peepz.. im hurt from SIA rejection.. hhaha.. (im kidding).. im startin to look forward to goin to club med soon.. when i save enuff.. club med.. WAIT FOR ME!!

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2006-04-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

im in immense pain now.. im suffering from pms n cramps.. jus snappin at everyone todae.. but lucky for me.. i was asleep most of todae..

bad things happen all on the same day.. first thing in the morning.. i had to realise im having my mens.. den it was my horrifyin dental trip.. n den.. my terrible cramps following my mens.. n now im being left all alone at home.. how sad can my life get.. its a sunday.. n im coped up at home feelin self-pity.. tumbling all over the floor in pain..

enuff said.. i dun wan to go on about how i was groanin in pain n complainin my mum shld have nv gave birth to me or instead shld have given birth to me as a boy.. (wel it happens every month).. i shldnt have cramps todae if i did not indulge in icy cold drinks n ice cream yesterdae.. juz my greedy mouth n my bad luck.. arghz..

pmsing.. ttz y im so moody.. wrote a looong complaint letter to swensens yesterdae on their evr so lousy service.. reason number 1 y singapore can nv be a service hub.. if u wan to noe good service.. please visit scarlet hotel.. i noe tt the standards will nv drop.. yup.. n o out my email went to swensens.. awaitin their explanatory reply..

went back to scarlet on fridae to visit angel on her last dae.. n i really miss the pple there.. i saw ms kim n its nice to hear tt she misses me too! its just too bad we will nv get a chance to work together again.. but tt doesnt mean i wll forget the scarlet peepz durin my time.. the maxwell porridge uncle remembers me too! he asked me "eh.. todae nv work ah?" i was like.. i no longer work there.. den he said " now see the real u.. (coz i nv make up ma).. more pretty.." den i went.. "uncle.. no make up den i not pretty readie la.. hhahaha".. funny how pple can recognise me sithout my make-up n uniform.. hmm...

taze n vernon wanted to give me a lift home.. ok fine.. i force them to drive me back home.. n they totally forgot my existence in their car n went straight back to their house.. n they played a trick on their mum.. they conspired n brought me in the house without taze.. i was so so so so embarrased.. n their mum got a shock... wa.. how can i face the world!! but their house is very nice.. very neat n very chic.. i like it.. n there's sumthing wrong with their cupboard.. n im the oni one who see's it.. no one else realised.. n vernon insisted the carpenter wont make mistakes.. fine fine.. its just me.. anywae.. im happy for them.. they r goin rom in july.. n im invited!! if they r not invitin me.. im gonna crash anywae.. hahahah..

been a bz week for me at work too.. i muz say i reallie m hardworkin.. haha.. i keep askin for work to do.. coz i will fall asleep once i start lazin.. n i alreadie tried dozin off.. ttz the problem with office jobs.. n the trip to coconut groove tt im lookin forward to to celebrate hk's bdae has been postponed due to the blur queen not knowin when her flt is... haiz...

but me n sy went to coconut last nite anywae.. she's like facing some probs now... drank espresso martini tt even th waiter didnt know existed.. hhaa.. i hope everythings goes fine for her.. sy u muz jiayou!! dun think too much.. n isnt it too late for u to now realise tt im mature.. i noe u since eons yrs ago can.. but ya.. my mature side doesnt come out often anywae.. its usually hidden.. i like to think im still 16.. haha..

hmm.. lookin forward to attend mitsuye's bdae party.. no idea where is it though.. waitin for someone to tell me.. haha.. till i ever blog again.. take care everyone!!

Work.

2006-04-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

1st week of work has been pleasant.. short regular workin hours.. but loads to learn.. im slowly pickin up stuff at work.. but considerin my pea brain might take a longer time.. hehe.. my colleagues are all nice n frenly.. anne my manager (my manager from chan brother's is also anne!!).. jenny my mentor.. geraldine the accountant.. kevin the only man of the company.. n nando the almost non-existing boss are my new mates.. they are all harmless n very helpful.. but they dun lunch out.. so i oni can find my sister n siuyuin to accompany me.. goin to scarlet to find the people seems quite a task considerin the blazin hot sun at lunch time.. im happy at work now.. n i dun need office wear!! i can wear jeans to work.. save money man!! dun be jealous of me!! hehe...

nuthin much to sae.. lookin forward to plannin my surprise.. its comin soon!! SURPRISE!!

ps. i told u my blogskin is nice.. thanx everyone!! hahhaa

NEW SKIN!!

2006-03-31T13:14:00.000+08:00

how do u all like my new skin? i like it very very very much.. if u all think it suckz.. pls lemme noe so i can change it again ya.. heee...

the kind of friend that i m...

2006-03-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

sherlyn, you're a Sympathetic Sidekick

No one ever accused you of not having a soft side. And that's why friends flock to your sympathetic ear and well-thought-out advice. You are tuned in to the world around you, and you are always looking for ways to bring people together and enjoy each other's company. While some people might have one or two close friends, you like to spread your wings and socialize with any number of people. You are open-hearted and free-spirited, making it easy for you to find common ground with anyone you meet. Keep up the good work — everyone could use a friend like you.

Worried.

2006-03-30T19:10:00.000+08:00

my brother is sick n he came over to stay at our house todae.. so poor thing.. he looks so weak.. lost his usual playful self.. he didnt even retort back when i asked him, "r u dead yet?".. he is the one usually teasin us n tellin us lame jokes.. apparently he wasnt feelin well n went to see a doctor last nite at sgh.. accordin to the doctor, he has some nerve virus.. n it happens to be quite common.. but his symptoms sounds similar to stroke as half of his body feels very weak.. its like he lost control over half his body.. so ke lian rite.. my mum teared when my brother called in the morning.. i was quite worried too.. n i cried oso.. haha.. im worried wad.. his my brother leh.. lets hope he recovers soon...haiz.. everytime he falls sick, its like one big illness.. the last time he fell sick he had such high fever tt he had to be admitted to hospital.. lucky he got carin sisters like us to sponge him n stuff.. but this time round.. i reallie dunno wad i can do.. haiz... prayin hard for him..

abt hospitals.. my mum went to see a doctor at mount alvernia yesterdae as she had a bee sting.. she tried to pick up a bee by its wings with her bare fingers.. tts how she got stung.. well n we insisted she see a doctor in case tt small pathetic bee was poisonous.. turns out tt everything was fine n she wasted 50 bucks for nuthin.. haha.. well.. at least we all noe she is safe n tts all tt matters rite?? life is more important than money.. when u die u cant bring all the money with u.. maybe juz get ur kids n friends to burn some paper money.. heee...

oh.. did u all noe tt the incense paper now.. which means the money n stuff.. looks like our local currency.. i went to buy the things with my mum yesterdae to pray for qing ming n noticed that the paper notes in 10 dollar denominations were red.. 5s were green n 2s were purple.. the 100s r brown.. cool rite?? very creative i muz sae..haha.. but nuthin new this yr.. usually my sisters n i will find innovative stuff for my grandpa.. like lcd tv.. canvas chairs.. but this yr's only interestin thing was the red wine..n i reallie salute all the pple tt r doin all these incense stuff.. its tradition.. i especially wan to commend the shopkeeper yesterdae.. n mind u.. the shop owner was very young.. probably less den 30 n not some old uncle k.. only with pple like them can our traditions live... well.. not like i noe much abt traditions.. but at least these will be the pple who noe abt them.. n i reallie wonder who will continue prayin all these stuff in a couple of yrs.. i highly suspect tt after our parents generation die.. no one will reallie noe wad to do.. well.. at least neither my sisters or me will noe wad we have to do n stuff.. hahah..

my parents' 31st wedding anniversary is on saturdae.. where should we go for dinner man.. i hate it tt we can nv decide wad we wan to eat.. suckz.. someone decide b4 sat b4 we argue yet once again.. im gonna enjoy myself this weekend b4 i start work!! balcony on fri.. dinner on sat.. visitin my grnadpa's grave n lunch on sun.. i will have FUN!! wish me luck on monday!!

excited!!

2006-03-29T02:10:00.000+08:00

im plannin a surprise.. i cant tell wad.. im so freakingly excited!! haha..

enuff bout the surprise b4 i spill the beans abt wad it is.. anywae.. i chose the job that is payin me more which is at the trading firm.. m starting work on mondae.. the working hours are like 9 to 5.30pm.. n its a 5 day work week.. i feel so happy.. seems like im gonna have a life outside work!! yippee!

these couple of weeks tt im free have been fulfilling.. been out n enjoyed life.. everyone's biggest surprise would have to be tt i drank at bliss the other dae.. siuyuin's eyeballs almoz popped out when i ordered vodka.. hahha.. i mean.. i drink.. itz juz tt i dun like it u see. . haha.. so now u noe.. went for dinner yesterdae with elaine n siuyuin.. suppose to get a present for peixuan but i haven seen anything nice yet.. bought some stuff for myself though.. i keep spending money.. i juz bought clothes n shoes over the weekend.. lucky im startin work soon b4 i go bankrupt.. haha.. shoppin is soooooooooo fun.. met up with angel for drinks at bold for a while.. n proceeded to party world near the hotel to join louis, leon, k.c., and some of their frenz for ktv.. i mean i noe them but juz bu shou lor.. but one thing for sure.. they r all so pro man.. they voices r damn nice.. i've heard so many pple sing ktv but i tink they really can sing the best.. i tink a few of them can even make it to project superstar!! haha.. im wishin them luck..

ok.. wish me luck too since im startin work on monday.. time to sleep.. nitez!!

aLiVe..

2006-03-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

ooohh... been a long time since i last blogged.. y no offers to buy me yet.. im so upset.. hahah... been hiding at home after my genting trip.. the trip didnt serve its purpose to unwind as my mother had an asthmatic attack.. so scary.. n she hasnt had one since many many years.. plus.. the hotel provided horrible service.. i mean.. i wasnt expectin much.. but theirs was unacceptable.. they didnt even noe where the clinic was n they didnt offer to do house call.. how inefficient is tt.. haiz.. well.. nuthin beats scarlet.. no joke.. haha.. plus plus.. i was sick b4 i went genting.. was sniffin everyday there.. i brought like 10 packs of tissue paper n i used it all.. so ke lian rite.. fallin sick once i become jobless haha...

oh yes.. n i finally made it to balcony on wed!! went there with salma.. it was so much fun.. the place is niceeeeeeeeee... the downstairs had like rockin chairs.. (how cool is tt?).. the upstairs had a jacuzzi.. anyone game can go soak inside.. not like anyone cares.. haaha.. but i wont have the guts to go into the jacuzzi clad oni in a bikini.. n in right in the middle of the bar.. n the interestin thing is tt.. they have seats around the jacuzzi.. so if guys wan to check out the ladies in the jacuzzi they can pick their seats around it.. met ben too.. he's like the head chef there.. much better place there den in scarlet.. oh yes.. n not becoz i noe him.. but the food is reallie not bad.. i had the ocean penne.. it was super yummy n it is served in a humongous servin...plus.. its not too ex!! new place foud to chill.. salma had 2 lychee martinis in the afternoon.. but didnt see her get high though.. wad a waste.. hahah.. she's so gonna smack me when she sees this.. hahaha...

went for my first interview after scarlet on thursdae.. n the lady said i was her most promisin candidate!! haha.. im so happy.. can u see me floatin already?? its a tradin firm that dealt with gemology equipment.. very interestin considerin i quite like gems n stuff.. n guess wad.. she offered me the job.. they are payin me 1400 b4 confirmation.. n will be lookin at 1,5 or 1,6 after comfirmation.. BUT.. i went for another interview todae at an IT firm and they offered me the job after the interview.. n i was quite shocked.. i mean i didnt expect that they will just offer me the job so quickly.. n now i oni have one dae to consider their offer as they wan me to start on mondae... so im pretty lost now... they are oni offerin me 1,3 for now.. but they promised increment after confirmation.. n its 5 1/2 day week conpared to the other one tt is oni 5 day.. but i feel like im gonna earn more in the IT firm.. and i think i will progress more there.. so i really dunno which one to accept now.. which would u choose if u were me?? haiz..

i need a drink now.. (not neccessarily alcoholic.. but i wont mind if it is..) b4 i make my decision.. meetin elaine n siuyuin at bliss tonite for drinks.. haiz.. WAD SHOULD I DO??

Sherlyn for sale...

2006-03-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

if im up for sale will u buy me? im not too expensive.. hehe.. im priced at $1,650,538.. if u would like to place an order for the one n oni sherlyn lim shuwen in the world.. pls leave me a tag.. hahha... go get urself tagged at http://humanforsale.com ..

2006-03-10T04:33:00.000+08:00

http://www.drawahouse.com/

Based on the drawing and the 10 answers they gave this is a summary of their personality:Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

PHOTOS!!

2006-03-10T02:12:00.000+08:00

i uploaded some pics.. if u wan see pls proceed to http://shersher09.myphotoalbum.com =)

iM BaCk!!

2006-02-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

elloz everyone!! im back!! havem updated in a long time.. i write a bit of stuff over the past couple of weeks.. its "expired" but i wrote le.. so die oso muz post..

25/02/2006
im goin on leave for about 5 days from tmr onwards!! packed my free time with loads of stuff! goin for the sia interview tmr.. although i dun really tink i qualify.. but juz try lor.. i tink siuyuin might get it.. hehe.. if she gets it i muz make her buy me a huge meal.. coz i force her to accompany me.. hehe... after the sia interview.. will be headin back to ij to take a look around the new compound.. n according to elaine.. mrs how (ms yip) wants us to go back help our juniors with the footdrill.. but my footdrill knowledge is all rusty ready.. hehe.. juz go back look look see see ba.. i wont be of much help.. trust me.. gone were the days were i noe the drills n commands at my fingertips.. im OLD!! save me.. but elaine is growin older first.. her birthdae is coming.. hehe... okok.. enuff bein mean.. after ij we will be headin down to hk's house to bunk over.. another girl's nite.. haven seen her in our past 2 meetins.. she forgot us tt day at timbre.. n she didnt join us for our day out at sentosa n elaine's hostel.. put us aeroplane twice!! she better feed me sumthing nice at her house...

hmm.. m bz on sumday too.. goin for steamboat with tb17 peeps..i juz miss those days we slack n crack jokes n bitch abt everything in class n in school.. n to tink i always grumbled bout sch n stuff... went back to np todae with jieqi to get our appraisals done.. n guess wad i forgot to bring? the appraisal forms!! haha.. saw lawrence one of our IS module tutor.. he cant remember my name.. but he offered to do my appraisal.. but i didnt wan.. haha.. i told him since he cant remember me.. so his appraisal wont be accurate..

07/03/2006
sadly.. im longer princess of scarlet.. sobz.. left the place with mixed feelings together with a heavy heart.. im gonna miss everyone.. no more lame jokes.. no more horrible maxwell food.. no more vegetarian food at the restaurant.. no more guests praising me (u noe how difficult it is to get praised in sigapore??) arghz.. but one thing im happy abt is tt i finally get a break.. i desperately need a rest.. well not exactly resting though.. helpin my sister with her work.. well.. if im not gonna help.. she's not gonna get any sleep for the whole of this week.. so instead of my well deserved break.. im sloggin my guts out in front of my pc.. my last shift was with salma.. n at the end of the shift.. i suddenly felt so empty.. n i stoned for closed to a minute in from of the cashier.. thinkin t im nv gonna touch tt again.. no more countin the money over n over again.. no more batching on the edc machine.. no more everything.. but clearance yesterday wasnt so bad bcoz i had angel for company.. we went to bid everyone farewell n thanked them for being so wonderful (well.. most of them were nice).. but they seem like facing quite a crisis in front office.. im prayin hard everything goes well.. i feel for them as i once belonged there.. oh well.. no longer though..

was supposed to go to balcony todae with angel n salma.. but we postponed it.. im lookin forward to go sit in the swings.. its so COOL!! haha.. n angel said ben (ex-chef at scarlet) heard tt im jobless n wants to offer me a job as he works at balcony.. but see how la.. scully he say say only.. haha.. n im probably not good enuff for waitressin.. i will spill all the drinks n topple all the food.. hehe.. im such a klutz.. n i will be so tempted to pinch on the diners food for im eternally hungry..

oh yes.. abt sia..so angry.. after much waitin.. we didnt get to go for the interview in the end as they turned the crowd awae as they were TOO TOO MANY people..so waste my time!! well.. applause for those who graciously left.. boo to those who tried to squeeze their way in.. hello.. come back again the next dae or something la.. itz so umglam to push.. n they r not even aunties (i tot only aunties liked to push).. they r like my age.. omg.. omg.. pple these dayz..

went back to the new ij compound after the sia thingy to visit the red cross peepz.. the new sch is magnificent.. it is so so pretty.. all my sweat n blood n money.. (juz in case u didnt noe.. most ex-ij gers raised funds like crazy..) haha.. but it didnt feel like the school i went to.. i cant recognise everything minus the steps that they didnt hack away.. we left notes on the teachers' tables as it was saturday n they were not around.. but i juz had to tell them i was there wad.. if not they tink im so heartless n nv visit.. its so funny.. i tried to write a note in chinese for my lao shi.. but i cant remember how to write so many words!! muz read more chinese papers n books.. im chinese!! i need to know my roots!! heee..

one more thing !! i noe itz a bit late now.. but wishing ELAINE a very very happy 21st bdae!! we've known each other for a long time.. since primary 5.. woah.. n how old r we now.. it muz have been close to 10 years!! we all went to her birthdae party on sunday.. had loads to eat.. haha.. nice birthday cake n a very pretty pink panther agar agar.. how cute is tt rite!! we bought her a set of bikini (so she wont have to wear her sister's anymore.. i bet her sister is thankin us.. hahha).. the bikini is quite sweet.. n has a very retro feel.. suits her fine!!

once again.. im thinkin tt there r too many 21st bdae parties this yr.. im goin broke!! haiz.. but this is the yr u get to see all ur frenz b4 everyone moves on.. forget or drift away each other.. dun deny.. this is juz the way life is.. everyone moves on n sometimes we forget.. tell me u remember all ur frenz since like kindergarten.. impossible rite.. so enjoy everyone.. n make the best use of your youth!! we r gettin OLD!!

ok.. on a partin note.. i will like to thank everyone whom i knew n worked with at the scarlet.. it has been a very fulfilling 8 1/2 months there.. i love u all loads!! tartarz!

aNyOnE nOeZ??

2006-02-11T01:34:00.000+08:00

anyone of u know any friends or relatives workin in birkenstock?? i wan go try the sandals n buy online.. n i dun dare to walk into the boutique to try n not buy.. solutions anyone?? PLS HELP ME!! haha.. will blog soon.. many many things happened.. till then.. byeeeeeeeeee..

iM fReE..

2006-01-28T01:24:00.000+08:00

juz so that all of u noe.. i have officially resigned... i tendered my resignation letter on 26/01/2006... will no longer be part of the scarlet hotel anymore at the end of feb.. hopefully my life will fall back in place.. thank you to everyone supportin me.. itz not easy for me as well.. as happy as i am that im leavin here.. i am sad as well.. all that i have in the past 7 1/2 months are here.. my laughters.. my frenz.. my work.. the guests.. and everything.. thinkin tt everything will be the same will only show how naive i am.. it will nv be the same.. i will nv get to come to work to see my precious team.. the people whom i see almoz everydae of the week.. nv will i have to wake up at 5am to get prepared for work.. no more sleepless nites for midnite shifts.. no more free cokes from bold n desire.. no more soya bean from najihah.. etc etc..

y is it that wad makes u the happiest, also makes u the saddest? now i truly now how it feels.. but i noe this is best for myself.. n i really have taze to thank for.. for makin my resignation smooth.. i have expected grilling sessions n exit interviews.. thank you for giving me support as a fren instead of treatin me only like ur subordinate.. n thank u everyone out there who is happy for me.. becoz now.. i feel free.. n i noe itz final.. no turning back for me...

enuff about the unhappy stuff.. im excited bout chinese new yr.. but i havent bought my new year clothes!! will go out tmr to buy it.. n for the first time in my life.. im gonna give my grandparents n parents ang baos for new yr.. reason becoz im earnin ready.. they might not get a chance to get it next yr if i go back to sch.. hahah.. so yea.. im the fillial one!! hahah...

ok.. enuff.. time to pack up and go meet my family in chinatown... go grab more stuff for new yr.. they might be le-long-ing awae coz itz already close to new yr!! i love bargains!! seeya all soon... byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Decision Made..

2006-01-22T10:02:00.000+08:00

finally after a long while.. i realised tt when its time to go.. u have to go.. n i've made up my mind.. too much work n sudden responsibilities pushes me off balance... my life is kinda in a mess rite now.. unhealthy mental health due to stress.. unhealthy body due to irregular hours.. uhealthy social lifestyle thanx to the 6 day irregular hour work week.. wad more can i ask for rite? these are more den enuff reasons forcing me to go.. im juz counting down the days before i give in to my stress n fall into depression.. do pick me up when i fall ya.. haiz..

life isnt a bed of roses i noe.. everyone tells me so.. but this place tt im in has so much politics.. i realy dunno who to trust.. but i noe he is doin far too much a normal person wont do.. wad good is it for u to backstab ur counterparts? wad gd is it for the family to fall apart.. ALL BECOZ OF U N U ALONE? becoming acting guest relations manager was nv part of wad i had in mind when i joined scarlet.. n its proving to be too much more den i can handle... things im expected to noe either becoz they think im a genius or they really think i can read their minds.. like i already said.. 1/2 a yr in hospitality doesnt make me a good enuff grm.. so i need alot of guidance.. which wa initially promised.. well.. haven had much of it though.. n already had been asked to keep vigilant.. hello.. m i suppose to noe if my staff r chewin gum? i didnt even see it.. N DUN MAKE ME THE BAD GUY.. IF U WAN TO SCOLD.. PLS DO SO URSELF!! y does it always have to be me when u urself have higher or shld i sae highest authority here? nobody can challenge ur position n i wont.. n dun want to!! pls go n die b4 we all kill u!!!

like the article tt said staff leave their jobz despite high pay n gd benefits becoz of their immediate superiors bein incompetent n stuff like tt.. i believe its true to a certain extent.. well well.. so everyone up there.. time to reflect.. n zamil.. i kept true to my word!!

so while i slack n apply for uni.. i will consider my job options.. anyone with jobs to recommend feel free to lemme noe ya.. im open to options.. i have 2 now.. so im still considerin.. but i kind of prefer office hours.. pls do not tell me how borin it gets.. come try the hotel line b4 u tell me tt ya..

so now that i finally made up my mind.. dun say anythin else... pls juz stand by me when i leave all i have behind to start all over again.. this i noe u all will do.. esp my family.. thank u mummy for giving me endless supports to wadever decisions i make.. n my sisters for always givin me advise n makin me laff when i feel down after a day at work.. love u all loads!!

last thing.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FISH!!.. n thank u debbie for the x'mas gift.. n yes.. dun go watch memoirs of a geisha.. it is SUPER BORING.. take care everyone!!

AnSwErS fOr DeBoRaH..

2006-01-04T09:29:00.000+08:00

u delibrately asked qns tt date back to a trillion yrs ago n u noe juz how gd my memory is.. hopefully i get at least one of the answers rite.. hehe.. u cant blame me if i get it wrong anywae.. who doesn't noe i've got dory fish memory... hahahaha

1. how did we actually know each other back in school?
classmates la.. but i knew u probably coz i knew xinyuan n gerianne.. we werent sittin too close by rite.. n u had attitude problem back in ij.. hahah pls dun kill me!!
2. what was the first birthday present we gave you?
erm.. if i nv remember wrongly is the board that reads SHER.. n u all wrote msges for me on it.. i still have it now.. sittin outside my room.. i will still read it occassionally!
3. how many performances did we do together?
none??.. ok maybe we did.. for the adventure camp in sec 3 n the a4 camp in sec 4..
4. what do i love to shop for?
clothes? n now probably stuff to make accessories? i dunno.. we usually juz walk n buy.. n continue walkin n buyin.. hahaha
5. what are my favourite flowers?
wow.. i dunno the names of many flowers.. so i give up on this qn..
6. what used to be my favourite colour before green?
was it blue or purple? blame my brain ok.. i dun even remember wad i used to like.. hahaha
7. where did we last go out?
last month.. to ps.. where u bought loads of stuff from spotlight.. den down to cineleisure to watch perhaps love..
8. what's the middle name i had for you ages ago?
ur full name is deborah rachelle sum xiang jun.. rite??
9. how many times did we go overseas together?
well like u mentioned in ur blog.. NEVER!! hahaha
10. what's my shoe size??
a bit smaller den mine.. shld be 7.. coz we bought a similar pair of slippers long long time ago.. n i bought 8 n u bought 7... hahahah..

ok.. ttz it.. i probably scored quite badly.. lemme noe my results ya!

oh.. n anywae.. i emailed to yoshinoya abt the issue at ps.. they actuallie sent me some vchrs as apology.. haha.. not tt i have much use for it though.. i dunno where it is anywae.. heee..

ok.. this post this specially for u debz.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! n HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!

MeRrY ChRiStMaS!!

2005-12-28T05:02:00.000+08:00

hohoho.. merry christmas everyone.. firstly.. i would like to thank my family for the wonderful presents.. the conan dvd from my sisters.. the wallet (which i m gonna buy soon) tt my aunt nancy sponsored me.. the nice turquoise watch my aunt veron bought.. the limited edition cookie from crabtree n evelyn from my er jie (i wanted the ginger biscuit though).. n the money i tink my parents will give (coz they dunno wad to buy).. n i oso got a nice pair of earrings from taze.. not forgetin all the yummy food n chocolates from the peepz at work.. oh yes.. n thank u deb for ur present.. though i dunno wad it is yet.. =0)

n as usual.. i gave out my goodie bags this yr.. only difference is tt i gave it out at work instead of in sch this yr.. missed out givin a lot of pple at work coz i didnt see them.. im sorry... but i didnt miss out anyone from front office.. i even have one left for salma who is enjoyin herself in australia now.. hmm... got very extreme reactions from some pple i gave.. suzana n rebecca from sales were kinda shocked.. well.. but i tot x'mas was the season of givin.. shldnt be tt surprisin rite? but im glad i made them happy!!

also i would like to thank all those who gave me advise on the mind boggling issue at work.. some of u already noe wad.. for those who dunno.. i will update u all when the time comes.. i already decided to accept it.. really muz thank angel though.. she will alwiz be my number one supporter.. i haven told this to many pple.. at least not many pple at work noez abt this.. well.. when the time comes... everything will be revealed.. it kinda doesnt matter if i get it or not.. i juz do wad im supposed to do.. rite?

enuff abt work.. went out with elaine yesterdae to get laura's present.. was supposed to meet huikie as well.. but her meetin went on till abt 5.. n i was already almost home buy tt time.. haha.. n tt jean.. last minute sae cannot meet.. bite her!! n it is soooooo damn diffucult to find something tt will suit laura man.. plus its pple everywhere in orchard.. i almost fainted.. i hate crowds..but we eventually found some nice stuff.. but we side tracked a bit.. hehe.. coz i bought a nice pair of white colored heels!! my first pair of goin out heels.. i usually only buy heels for work or sch presentations!! will wear it to laura's party on sunday.. i oso have to lug her present there.. huikie.. come pick me la.. u drivin rite?? hehe... but still dunno wad to wear yet as laura said must be slightly more formal.. im gonna wear a nice top n jeans i tink.. not too bad wad rite?? ehehe.. not my birthday ma.. later i wear too nice den outshine laura how.. see.. im sooo thoughtful!!!

oh yes.. n yesterdae was remy's last day at work.. n todae will be zamil's.. im goin to miss zamil.. he will alwiz be my shifu!! good luck to both of u.. may u excel wherever u go.. n may u both alwiz remember me as the princess of scarlet's front office... *sobz* i hate to see pple go.. saddening isnt it...

well well.. with lesser pple means more job.. i sure can foresee longer hours n heavier workload.. if only everyone does wad they r supposed to do.. maybe it wont be tt bad.. lets all keep out fingers crossed!! (im prayin hard as well)..

n in the twinkling of an eye.. we r gonna head into 2006.. n soo many pple i noe r gonna turn 21.. i see a hole in my pocket!! oh no... haha..

so while im here.. i wan to wish deborah.. (yes its u deborah sum.. haha..) a happy 20th birthday!! lynn as well.. same day as deb's.. happy birthdae!!i oso wanna wish laura a happy 21st birthday!! may the three of u have a tremendous day n a gd yr ahead.. im givin u three my best n warmest wishes...

to everyone else.. happy new yr!!

sOoOooo tRuE..

2005-12-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

No AWS... hOw SaD..

2005-12-15T05:54:00.000+08:00

juz received news that we will not be gettin our aws.. im not sure if they will give bonus next yr though.. but im not quite sure i will be here till then.. well well.. when its time to go.. its time to go.. wad can i do.. im not goin to dwell on the unhappy things.. i enjoyed my d & d n outin with deborah!! ttz wad's important.. haha

Dinner & Dance
go look at the pictures.. im the princess.. dun care.. coz i got tiara ma.. had fun tt nite.. screamed my guts out.. okok.. i screamed.. but didnt spill my guts... was especially excitin when angel was crowned ms scarlet.. no sash or tiara for her though.. a bit cheapskate rite.. haha... hotel tryin to cut cost.. but cut le still no bonus wad.. haiz.. the emcee was not bad.. very funny guy.. the way he dance can laff till i roll on the floor sia.. n everyone just looked great tt nite.. with lachmi bringin home the title of the best dressed....

well.. n mr raj our gm looked.. hmm.. unkempt.. haha.. he had on this wierd beard thingy.. he probably took leave to purposely grow it.. well.. all stars nite rite? rachel didnt even dress up!! audrey hepburn summore.. well well.. but khairul did.. he came as usher.. but shorter version of coz.. hahha... oopz.. im bein so evil... haha... but i was nice enuff to act like a fanatic fan when he left tt nite ok.. thank me khairul.. i was ur number 1 fan..

the nite however didnt turn up too well.. Things jus had to go wrong.. but everything was under control.. or so i think.. but was kinda freaky when zamil told us wad happen.. lucky i wasnt there to witness wad happened.. mite have fainted upon seein all the blood! well.. but there were still drops of it all over breeze.. OUCH!!

but we had a good talk with our then inhouse guest mr ralph lee.. very funny guy.. n he insists he is 100% french.. not chinese a weeeeee bit.. hahha.. n weipz had to leave first as she was startin work at ritz the next day.. wow.. ritz carlton ok.. dun pray pray.. hope she has fun there.. she alwiz wanted to do front desk.. now this is a good chance for her.. at a hotel with such prestige.. well.. she not the only one movin on.. zamil my shifu.. is goin on to grand hyatt.. on the grand club floor.. how cool is tt..

so the d & d ended when we decided to call it a nite coz we were all hungry.. went to maxwell to eat.. n sumone commented i looked like a model.. can u imagine hpw happy i was.. well.. its nice to hear things like tt once in a while rite.. hehe...

Outing with Deb
met up with deb on monday.. n as usual she was late.. so we walked around spotlight lookin for her stuff.. quite fun actuallie.. but i will nv be as creative as her.. i will buy presents instead of makin them.. no time.. no energy.. haha.. im sure the pple receivin her prezzies will like them coz its super kawaii.. besides the one tt looked like a cow in purple spots.. hahaha...

den we went to eat yoshi n met this irritating server.. his name is sean.. workin in ps yoshi.. threw our bowl onto the tray.. hello.. we didnt offend u did we.. bad service attitude.. how can we become a service hub with pple like tt.. wanna learn abt good customer service.. come take a look at scarlet.. we nv throw our guests their bills n credit cards do we? we provide oni impecable service.. n im really not boastin.. (minus me la)..

we den went to watch perhaps love.. music was super duper nice.. but i didnt quite get the movie.. accordin to the review.. slightly older pple mite understand the movie pple.. well.. cant help it if im oni 20 can i? well but on the whole.. i wld sae its a good show worthy of ur time n money...

n plus.. x'mas decors at orchard sux big time this yr.. from wad i heard was because of the reduced budget.. but i believe we could have done better.. hello.. we r singapore rite? so nuthin interestin.. oni tt deb's shoe was hurtin her feet n she almoz strangled me for makin her walk unnecessarily.. which wasnt my fault i forgot.. coz i really haf a super duper short term memory.. not the first day u noe me rite.. heheh.. sorry la..

well.. all is back to normal.. no more fun nitez n outings.. i will still have to continue workin n sloggin my guts out until i tender my resignation.. where shld i go from here... give me a sign PLEASE..

announcement

2005-12-13T04:08:00.000+08:00

to view d & d pictures n some other pics i uploaded, pls visit http://shersher09.myphotoalbum.com

will blog tmr!! tartarz..

dInNeR & dAnCe..

2005-12-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

im gonna my first ever company dinner n dance tmr nite!!kinda excited.. lemme win the plasma tv plsssssssssssssss.. haha.. though i dun reallie have much use for it.. lemme win sumthin la.. if not cash oso good. haha.. but i heard the cash prizes r for ms n mr scarlet.. so who will it be?? hmm.. who shld i vote for tmr.. probably angel mite geddit.. coz she is well loved by all.. but who will be mr scarlet? i hardly noe any guys goin.. zamil oso not confirm.. maybe khairul.. oh ya.. den maybe its gonna be khairul.. lets hope they both from front office since they alwiz sae we have the best lookin front office..

m so lookin forward to tmr nite's lucky draw n the contest.. enjoy everyone!!