i dun understand how bad things can come all at a go.. but the worst of the lot is that my paternal grandma is very very sick.. n according to the doctor.. it's very much juz boddin for time before she goes.. the most optimistic outlook is 3 months.. but from wad im seein.. i dunno if we can still celebrate the last chinese new year with her..
99yrs is a ripe old age i noe.. but havin to see someone so close go is hard.. those of u who noe me well enuff will noe how bad i am at sayin goodbyes.. n this time round its forever.. i grew up with my grandma.. she stayed with us since i was born.. or maybe before tt.. when i was younger.. i used to run to sleep with her in her room when i had nightmares.. though i no longer do that.. i still remember.. im her fave of my sisters.. she always asked me to do stuff for her.. she used to reward me with 20cents when i was younger.. but as everyone grows up n gets bz.. we spend lesser time with her.. n u stay findin her naggy.. but when u noe its time.. its reallie quite hard to get over.. it's easy to tell my er jie not to keep cryin everytime she sees my grandma.. its reallie heartbreakin coz she is like gettin more frail by the dae.. im prayin hard tt i can take everything well..
i dunno.. though it seems like im takin things as they come.. i cannot imagine when it reallie happens.. i wan to be brave.. let me be... please let me be...
but through all the bad news.. at least i heard a piece of good news.. sy's baby is a boy!! baby xavier!! =D it's probably the only thing im lookin forward to.. godma is awaiting ur arrival xavier!
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